Crazy Thought

"I feel like everything's gonna blow."

That was the first thing crossed in my mind when I started this post.

I don't know why, but I feel so gloomy today.


It might be the rain that keeps falling.

It might be those things I've gotta deal with, while I've got no time to.

It might be the fact that my baby hasn't been eating all day.

It might be the fact that I didn't play futsal last Thursday.

For the one I met on Thursday, please understand how big the sacrifice I've made, just to meet you.

Maybe it's this and that.

But once again, what if it was just me?

What if the only thing goin on here is that I'm just incapable of being happy.

Well, actually I can be happy for some moments. But my mood is just like roller coaster.

I'm so bipolar. I don't understand my self.

Maybe I'm too sensitive.

Today I just heard that one of my seniors in junior high just passed away.

She was hit by a motorcycle some couple of days ago. She's been in a coma for days, then today she finally gone.

It's sad. And also surprising. Shocking!

It made me thinking how short life is. How unexpected life is.

I always pray to God to give me long life. I pray that God would never take me. That God would let me enjoy this life more than anybody else.

Death sucks.

It made me gloomy. I hate it.

I hate so many things.

Maybe that's why it's kinda hard for me to be happy.

I feel this uneasy feeling 

Ok. Bye!

Have a Nice Trip, Mom!

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

After days of rainy morning, finally the sun came up this morning. The sun finally shone. Oh this morning was sooo… beautiful!

I woke up at 6 something. I slept a little bit more, but then I realize how sunny outside. So I jumped outta bed and took Bulbul for a walk. I really enjoyed the sunshine. After these rainy days, I realize how precious sunshine is.

So today my mom is gonna fly to Holland with one of her bestfriends, Tante Hafni. In the morning, Mama made smoked beef sandwiches for breakfast, then took Deany to the dentistry clinic in Mustopo as always.

I was supposed to meet my friend in Tangerang. But she cancelled the meeting, so when Adrian woke up, I asked him to watch the DVD with me.

We watched ‘Dream House’, a psycho-thriller movie about a happy family who just started living in a new house. The actors were pretty famous, such as Daniel Craig, Rachel Weisz, and Naomi Watts. Rachel Weisz looked so beautiful in that movie. Well, actually she always looks really good in any movie. She’s so pretty.

In the afternoon, Stevie came to my house. He is the cousin of Mbak Vina, from her father’s side. Stevie just came to give something for Mbak Vina. If you haven’t read anything I wrote about Mbak Vina, I’ll tell you now, that she is my cousin who lives in Rotterdam, Holland. She’s been living there since 2002. So, if there were anything we need to give to her, we gave it to anyone from the family who were going to Holland.

Mama herself needs to go to Holland to visit Opa Heru, his uncle who lives in Den Haag. Opa Heru wants to come to Jakarta, so Mama has to pick him up, because he’s already blind.

Stevie just came to give Mama something for Mbak Vina then left. Om Gusye, the father of Mbak Vina, came some couple of times after Stevie left. He also wanna give something for Mbak Vina. He brought a big bag of Mbak Vina’s favorite Indonesian snacks. He stayed for a while to have a little chat, then came back to his shop in BSD. He lives in BSD by the way.

Oh, I also wanna tell you about Om Gusye. He’s a very nice and charming guy. Actually, he’s just exactly the male version of Mbak Vina: funny, talkative, lovable, very friendly. I called him Papa when I was little.

Then, in the evening, finally Tante Hafni and her family pick Mama up. Tante Hafni was with her husband, Om Gatot, and two of their four kids, Mbak Lia and Fany. They were gonna take Mama and Tante Hafni to the airport. I had an appointment with Mbak Lia. So I meant to come with them to the airport. But the car was already really, really full, because both Mama and Tante Hafni carried lots of big suitcases. So I couldn’t come, and had to cancel my appointment again.

Right after Mama left, Adrian also left. He went to Plaza Senayan to watch at the cinema with his friends.

I watched 'Hit List' with Deany tonight. I didn't expect that movie to be such a good movie.

Happy Birthday, Dinda!!

Monday, January 09, 2012

Happy birthday, my best friend, Emeralda Noor Achni!

Emeralda Noor Achni, or people usually call her Dinda, is my very, very best friend. She’s one of my favorite people around me. She’s really funny, imaginative, creative, and seriously smart. I always feel like I can tell simply anything to her. I can tell my feelings, my secrets, my interests—any interest, whether we share the interest or not. She’s even so much better than diaries!

Today, for her birthday, she made some kinda quiz. She would treat two people who give her the most unique birthday wishes via twitter. Sadly I didn’t have internet connection the whole day. The internet in my house has been disconnected since three days ago. So I didn’t participate in that quiz. D’oh I couldn’t even post this post on time. L

Anyway, I really hope the best for you, my dearest best friend.

So, today, my agenda was meeting my friend in Steak n Shake Bintaro sector 3 at the evening. The whole day I just stayed at home, writing my diary, some articles, and thoughts. That was really fun!

At night all of my family, including me, left the house to take care of each own business. They took me to Steak n Shake at 8. Oh! Still raining even in the evening! Crazy!

Sorry, farmer, but I hate rain! Well, too much rain is not good for the paddies too, right Mr. Farmer?

Happy Wedding Sindi and Putra!!!

Sunday, January 08, 2012

Today is a big day for my friends Sindi and Putra. Both are my friends.

Sindi is one of my friends in Dana's team. She's a funny, lovable, charming, cheerful young woman with pale skin and beautiful hair.

Putra here is not Dana's brother Putra. This one is another Putra. Yeah, in Indonesia it's kinda common, the name 'Putra'. So the Putra that had a wedding today was my junior in high school. We played soccer together. I don't know much about him, since I didn't care about others, especially juniors.

So, they've been dating for some couple of years I guess, and finally today they got married.

I went there with Dana and his brother, the another Putra.

I met some people those used to be my juniors. There were Nadya, Sindy, Icha, Arin, Anggie, Black, Vico, Ara, and some others. Most of the girls were my teammate in women futsal team.

And, I met my old time best friend, Putri Tiara!
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I've Got a New Maid!!

Saturday, January 07, 2012

Oh, thank God! Finally my house's got a maid!

Her name is Tintin.

My old time servant, Suradi took her to our house.

Meeting in Pondok Indah Mall with Dana, Putra, Anne, Novi, Syarifa, and Rianty.

My First Holiday in 2012

Friday, January 06, 2012

I've made Friday as my holiday.

So, all I did today is enjoying my time with my self.

In the evening I went to Rizal's house, actually Rizal's friend's house where Rizal stays.

I went there because Rizal said he painted with his friends every Friday evening.

But when I went there, Rizal was sick.

So I just gave him back his book that I once borrowed, then I went home right away.

Welcome back, My Ordinary Day...

Thursday, January 05, 2012

Met Fathia in her clinic in Veteran.

It was rainy outside.

She was with her friend, Tasha.

We talked from 2 pm until 4.

Then I went to PIM.

Deany and my friend, Ateng were there.

Ateng is my old time friend from UPH.

We were both in the Communication Major in 2004.

Then I moved to Visual Communication Design, and he moved to Product Design.

We met again in Anka's wedding.

We both were the bridesmaid.

There Deany and Ateng met.

Then today they went to watch the movie together.

Ateng took us home at 8.

I was supposed to play futsal with my friends as always, but Mama was in her worst mood for some reasons.

So I didn't have gut to go playing futsal with my friends.

I stayed at home.

Damn!