Obsessed with the Routine

You know, I'm kinda start this routine all over again: pray 5 times a day, writing diary, Italian-Spanish-Portuguese lesson, meeting 2 - 3 people a day, etc.

But it seems impossible to do all those things!!! And it's very depressing for me! I feel like I'm gonna blow up! I feel like screaming!

I mean, I wanna spend time with so many people I love. I really wanna spend time with them. But it's killing me that I don't have time to spend with my self!! I have times to spend with God, my family, my friends, my job, but not me!!!! Right now I really need me-time!! A big amount of me-time!!! Aaarrhhhhhh!!!!

I NEED LOTS OF ME TIME...!!!! LEAVE ME ALONE PEOPLE!!

Sorry, it doesn't mean I didn't enjoy spending time with my family or my friends. I do enjoy spending time with them. That's why it's always been so hard to me to choose. I mean, when I know my family or my friends having some fun without me, I'd be very upset that I wasn't with them. Because I love them. I really love them. I wanna have so much time to spend with them. But I also need me time!!

Actually, what I want is, please, my family and friends, spend your time with yourself! Don't have fun together without me! Wait until I have time to have fun with you guys! Okay, I know that was selfish.

Sorry. But just remember, when I didn't spend time with you, I feel very sad. But I just can't help it. Because I really need a lot of me-time. Sorry.

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I feel really bad to write something like that.
Sometimes I really wish I could split myself: one part to have fun with those people I love, and other part to have fun with the me-time.

But anyway, I always thank God for everything. I thank God that I have so beautiful, wonderful family (including my cousins, aunties, uncles, nieces and nephews), greatest friends ever, from junior high to work. Really God, thanks for everything you gave me.

The Dreams Journal: 1, 2, 3

The Dreams Journal 1:
May 16
So I really meant to write my dream in detail. But the problem is, when I woke up, I can't remember the detail anymore. The point of the dream I had in my sleep at night before this day is, I was in adventure or something. The people keep changing, the setting keep changing, the condition and mood keep changing, until finally me and my adventurous friends got to find something beneath a bunch of... darn I can't even remember about the thing. But, beneath the bunch of thingy, I finally found what... sorry, we finally found what we were looking for: a diamond and a snake. A cobra. I forgot why should I find the snake. Wait, I think the bunch of things was a bunch of golden jewelry and coins. And the diamond in my dream didn't look like a real diamond, but something diamond-shaped, like in the card game, and it looks like made of bronze. Weird.

The Dreams Journal 2:
May 17
About the dream I have at night before this day, I also already forget most of the dream. The only thing I can remember, I was in a department store with some friends, and we were playing too much, we made a noise too loud, and suddenly my manager, Dana told us to stop making noise. Then we were in Japan, I don't know why. I think, in my dream, he was still in Rome, and I need to meet him to discuss about job, so we met in Japan. I couldn't tell whether it was Tokyo or any part of Japan, but it was in Japan. I was also with Dewi, my old time friend from Junior High School. Then suddenly I was in the middle of some show or something, and the audiences, including me, have to make a mexican wave. But no, it wasn't football match, I'm sure about it.

The Dreams Journal 3:
May 18
I had a very strange dream, again. Strange yet adventurous dream. Once again... I already forgot almost he whole dream. I forgot the occasion, the chronology, and everything.

But I remember I was in some place called Albany or Calgary or something like that. The only Albany I know is the capital of New York, and the only Calgary I know was the capital of Alberta, Canada. But this one place in my dream, that as far as I can remember, is something between Calgary or Albany, was a place somewhere in a city named Coda, that happened to be in Alaska. I don't know, is there any place in Alaska named Coda? The only Coda I know is a character from the animation movie 'Brother Bear'.

The place was snowy. But I didn't feel cold, because it was a dream of course. And I met someone that I met almost every day lately. And that person said, "I've seen your website and your manager on your website, I don't think he's wise enough." What the hell? LOL

Well, actually he said it in Indonesian, but since I wrote here in English... anyway, he used the word that is hardly ever used.

Then I was with Putra. We went home together, as we used to do long time ago. We took a bus or train or something, until the point we've got to walk. Then we had two choices. We have to walk through the underpass, or take the other way that wasn't explained in that dream. Putra said, "We can go through the underpass, but there will be so much #something I can remember# and gas."

So finally we took the other alternative way.

Oh darn, that's all I can remember.

It's a Wonderful Life!!

Thursday, May 17, 2012

I think today is really my day. Well, kind of.

I had three appointments and they were all yellow.... Sorry, it makes me singing. They were all in BSD. They were supposed to be in BSD. But, the first person happened to have another appointment in Bintaro. So I didn't have to go to BSD. We met in Bintaro, and we went to his house in Pamulang, then he took me to BSD where I had the next appointment. We met in Teras Kota, then, the first person I met, took me to Giant, where I had another appointment. Then I asked the second person to play futsal with me in Bintaro. So I went to the futsal field with the second person.

And today, there were 14 players! Including me, my new friend Alfin, the little boy Azis, and my brother Adrian! I'm always happy every time Adrian has time to join us.

So, today's game was really, really fun! We had enough players. But Archie and Taufan, who usually comes, couldn't come today.

About the person I met earlier today, Nathan, he's very nice. He took me to his house, as I've told, and I met his mother, brother, and his two cute little dogs! They are sooooooo....cute...!!! Super cute! They are very clean and healthy. The one bigger looks like my dog Socky, but the color is different and the fur's longer.

And...you know what? My brother is finally a co-pilot! He just passed his final test. Congratulation, brother!! I love you so much!

Thank you so much for today, God!

What a Day

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Hello, There!
Who did I say hello to?

Anyway, today I had some dance exercise at 11, it was fun. I had some nice new friends. Yeah they are all very nice people.

In the morning me and Adrian took Deany to her clinic at Moestopo Dentistry. The traffic was krraazzyyy...!

And today, me and Deany also went to Pondok Indah Mal to have some fun with Mbak Vina.
Okay. So, because it's been a very long time since the last time I post anything in this blog, I haven't tell about Mbak Vina coming to Jakarta.

So she's been in Jakarta since May 11, 5 days ago. And I just started writing diary again on May 14. That's why her coming hasn't been written here.

She'll be here until June 3, then she'll go back to Holland. I'm very happy that we finally meet again. It's like a dream that she's finally here again in Jakarta. So, I've decided to spend one day with her every week, as long as her stay in Jakarta.

May 11 was Friday. I was having appointment in RS Puri Cinere. I went to Mbak Vina's house after. I went home, then we went to watch movie at night. We went with her cousins from her father's side, Stevie, Dede, Patricia, and Stevie's wive. We watched 'Dark Shadow'. The movie was super duper gorgeous!! As always, Tim Burton with Johnny Depp, Helena Bonham Carter, and Colleen Atwood. Oh I am so in love with Colleen Atwood!

Then today, we actually planned to visit Oom Gusye, Mbak Vina's father, in BSD. But his car service shop (what is 'bengkel' in English, anyone?) must be very busy. So we planned to go on next Monday when the place would be closed. So today, Mbak Vina, Deany, and I went to watch movie.

Mbak Vina just had lunch with her father's older sister, Tante Noni and Vania, Tante Noni's youngest daughter. We met at PIM 2 and had some dessert. Then Tante Noni and Vania left.

Mbak Vina, Deany, and I went to XXI to check on the movies. We were planning to watch 'Mirror, Mirror', but the movie only played until 2 pm or something.

So we watched 'Lovely Man' instead. It was Indonesian movie. It was in some movie festival. The movie was about a transvestite father who met his daughter after a very long time. It was very good.

A Long, Long Day

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

This was such a very exhausting, yet lovely day. I've been very busy today.

In the morning I got busy preparing for today's business. At 10.30 am I left house, went to Puri Cinere Hospital to meet the doctor again. Then I took public car to Point Square, Lebak Bulus. I had lunch there, then I took a cab to MM Juice Kebayoran Baru, met my old friend there, doing some business.

Then I went to Ratu Plaza to catch the Trans Bintaro feeder busway. The bus came not so long after I arrived there, thank God! I went to Bintaro, I met another old friend at Lotte Mart.

I got home at 10.30 pm and I'm very tired now.

But I've got to write today's lesson first.

I just had this conversation about love with my friend. And I just conclude: love is supposed to be simple.

You don't love someone for his/her look, or appearance, or for the brain, or belongings, or money. You don't love someone for what they are, who they are, or where are they from. When you decide that someone is perfect for you because he/she fits your criteria of ideal boyfriend/girlfriend, that's not true love.

True love is when you truly love someone, so that everything about him/her is just perfect for you, no matter what.

Good nite everyone!

These are the Days of Our Lives

Monday, May 14, 2012

Whatever that means...

Well, these days felt like the days of my life. Last week my friend-and-manager, Dana, was having a wonderful trip in Rome with Prudential. I was really, really jealous. But the jealousy had lead me to some kinda positive changes. It really gave me positive energy. I woke up earlier, I do what I'm supposed to do, I fight harder than ever.

And anyway, I started to go back to my healthy, positive routine: the healthy life style, the praying schedule, the exercises schedule, the working schedule, the study schedule, etc. Everything's going very great and I thank God for that. And of course, writing this diary is always a part of the routine. So, here I am, finally updating this blog again.

So today I've finally done a promise I've made long time ago. Actually 2 promises, one to God, and one to somebody. And it felt really good of course.

I went to Puri Cinere Hospital today. I had an appointment. It went very well. Thank God again. I went home, did other things I was supposed to do.

So many new things I've learn today. And these days I've been thinking, when I think positive, everything is becoming positive. This late afternoon I saw the sunset and it was very, very beautiful. I saw a child and a father when I was waiting in Puri Cinere Hospital, and it made me very happy. I spent time with my father, my sister, my mom, and my dog, and it's very lovely.

Tomorrow will be a very busy day for me, and I know I won't have time to spend with my family, so I really appreciate what I had today. Thanks, God. Thanks for everything.

Great Movies about Great Legendary Actors

These days I've watched two great movies. Both told a story about famous actors. 'My Week with Marilyn' tells a story of a man that spent some days with the legendary Marilyn Monroe. 'The Artist' tells a story of famous silent movie actor, George Valentin who was drown when the era of talking movies started.

'My Week with Marilyn'
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Actors: Michelle Williams

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'The Artist'
Director:
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