Keel's Diary: Day 2

Forgot to post it on Friday. Ugh! (My days have been busy.

Keel’s Simple Diary: Day 2 (no. 45)

Date: Friday, January 20, 2017

Your day was (only choose one): ( ) a ruler              ( ) a junction        (v) fooling around

Explain why:

…because I was just fooling around, that’s why. Oh, I went to the cheapest and nearest salon to cut my hair. And I made some artworks. And I finished watching the latest episode of ‘This is Us’. OMG that series makes me cry every single time. I think maybe it was the last episode for the first season. Well, I hope not. If it was, then I couldn’t wait for the next season to begin. But BTW, I got a spoiler that next week they would reveal… yeah it doesn’t matter. But point is there will be next episode next week. So… yeay! Do you watch ‘This is Us’? If you do, which character do you relate the most? Mine is Kevin.

Many are insisting on doing something nice to me. Thanks guys, really. I love you.

“No reason to comment on a stupid comment.”

Tell me about it!

Yes! You are right! You are totally right!

I was just so pissed with all those stupidity!

Yeah, so, as always, here in my very country, the people are fighting about political things. It’s just so annoying for me to see stupid posts from stupid people with stupid comments from another stupid people. They say stupid religious things like… okay, I don’t wanna offend any religion here. Anyway, I posted some comments and it pissed some airheads. Lol! But it was useless anyway. So, yeah, there is no reason to comment on a stupid comment.

A particular directive you find very disturbing: well..., let's see... any particular directive can be pretty disturbing, because it is particular, and it is directive. So...

The right moment:                                                        Perfect timing:

A special condition                                                        Comes and goes

Requires awareness                                                      Allows spontaneity

Whatsoever!

A type of social event you find rather uneventful: arisan, WTF is the point? I don’t get it. I never get it!

Keel's Diary

Very late post

(Written on) Friday, January 13, 2017

So I finally decided to clean up my room. Of course I didn't really finish cleaning up my room, but, as always, I found interesting stuffs!

I found this "Keel's Simple Diary". What an awesome book! I totally forgot who gave me that book, or where, when, and how did I get such an awesome book! How could I not notice that I've been keeping such cool book in my room? How could I forget that I have that book?

Seriously, I can't remember anything about how the book can end up in my room. Is that even mine?

Anyway, what's so special about the book? Well, it's a kinda interactive book that helps you to write your diary every day. It asks you question about your day, gives you daily quote/fact/tips, and then talks about random things. It's just like... you're talking to your best friend.

As for today, the book asks me whether my day was 'mute', 'state of the art', or 'a pursuit'. Well, my day was... a pursuit. Why? Unfortunately I can't tell you why, because I can't let certain people to know. Point is, today I have a mission, and that mission has been accomplished!

And the quote/fact/tips of the day is: "A conventional man can be the best father." Can. Not always. My father is a very conventional man, and he's been the best father for me. But, generally, I hate conventional men! I hate anything conventional. I hate conventional life, conventional values, and conventional mindset. Most of conventional things are either boring, stupid, or meaningless.

Luckily, I'm not planning to have any children, ever. So I won't need any conventional man to father any children.

And then, they have these words that I have to match with another word (preferably with a noun):

Rabbit:  overrated                                                         Hobby: football

Doctor: Grey’s                                                               Feelings: anxiety

Waitress: job                                                                  Weather: mood

Dictator: me                                                                   Food: life

Drugs: shits                                                                     Energy: sun

Money: happiness                                                        Rules: Led Zeppelin

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And I also made Day 1 in Italian and Spanish.

Italiano:

Il Diario Semplice di Keel: Giorno 1

Data: venerdi, 13 gennaio, 2017

Il tuo giorno era (scegli solo uno): ( ) muto              ( ) all’avantguardia           (v) una ricerca

Spiega perchè:

Fortunatamente, oggi era una ricerca, perchè oggi, ho lavorato duro per finire tutti sulla mia lista delle cose da fare.

“Un uomo convenzionale può essere un padre migliore.”

Mio padre è un uomo molto convenzionale. Per me, lui è il padre migliore. Ma, odio gli uomini convenzionali (tranne mio padre, ovviamente). Odio qualsiasi di convenzionale. Fortunatamente, non avro bambini, ben non avro bisogno di alcun uomini da essere padre di alcun bambini.

Abbina i seguenti con altre parole (preferibilmente con un nome):

Coniglio: sopravvalutato                                            Passatempo: calcio

Dottore: Grey’s                                                             Sentimenti: ansia

Cameriera: lavoro                                                         Tempo (weather): umore

Dittatore: io                                                                    Cibo: vità

Farmaci: merda                                                             Energia: sole

Denaro: felicità                                                              Regole: Led Zeppelin

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Español:

El Diario Sencillo de Keel: Día 1

Fecha: viernes, 13 enero, 2017

Su día era (elige solo uno): ( ) mudo           ( ) lo último         (v) una búsqueda

Explicar por qué:

Por suerte, hoy era una búsqueda, porqué hoy, he trabajado duro para terminar todos tengo en la lista de quehaceres.

“Un hombre convencional puede ser un mejor padre.”

Mi padre es un hombre muy convencional. Para mi, él es el mejor padre. Pero, odio los hombres convencionales (excepto mi padre, por supuesto). Odio cualquier cosa convencional. Por suerte, no tendré hijos. Asi que, no necesitaré ningún hombre para ser padre por ningún hijo.

Relacionar las siguientes con otras palabras (preferiblemente con un sustantivo):

Conejo: sobrevalorar                                                   Pasatiempo: fútbol

Doctor: Grey’s                                                               Sentimientos: ansiedad

Camarera: trabajo                                                        Clima: humor

Dictador: yo                                                                   Comida: vida

Drogas: mierda                                                              Energía: sol

Dinero: felicidad                                                            Reglas: Led Zeppelin

Review 2016

These are my favorite posts this year:

1. "Valak!!"
http://astaripahlevisdiary.blogspot.co.id/2016/07/valak.html

2. "Jealous"
http://astaripahlevisdiary.blogspot.co.id/2016/01/jealous.html

3. "Potong Rambut"
http://astaripahlevisdiary.blogspot.co.id/2016/01/potong-rambut.html

4. "Pasien Nyebelin"
http://astaripahlevisdiary.blogspot.co.id/2016/06/pasien-nyebelin.html

5. "Penyayang Binatang"
http://astaripahlevisdiary.blogspot.co.id/2016/01/penyayang-binatang.html

6. "Kisah Baju Ronaldo dan Abang-abang"
http://astaripahlevisdiary.blogspot.co.id/2016/06/kisah-baju-ronaldo-dan-abang-abang.html

7. "And Here I Write about Love Again"
http://astaripahlevisdiary.blogspot.co.id/2016/02/and-here-i-write-about-love-again.html

8. "Renungan 10,000 Jam"
http://astaripahlevisdiary.blogspot.co.id/2016/09/renungan-10000-jam.html

9. "LGBT"
http://astaripahlevisdiary.blogspot.co.id/2016/04/lgbt.html

Overall, thank you for everything. Good bye 2016. Welcome, 2017!

For Me, 2016 is about Languages

Thursday, December 22, 2016

Eleven days before the first day of 2017, and I think it is the perfect time to write a little review and new goals and resolutions.

I seem to have more objectives to reach than most people. It seems like I'm greedy and I've got too many goals so every year I couldn't focus on those goals because they're too many. But, actually, most people goals are including career, family/love, health, and religious stuff. I only change family/love, health, traveling, and religious stuff to writing books, making artworks, and learning languages. So, yeah, those are my goals. I failed to reach all of those goals, not because they are too many, but because I have no discipline.

As much as people with body goals go to the gym, I'm supposed to be in front of my computer more. Well, yeah I've been in front of my computer enough, but not doing what I was supposed to be doing.

So, how's 2016 going for me?

I haven't reached my goals in career, writing, and arts. I traveled, and my trips were lovely for sure, but they weren't my traveling goals.

But... this year I've learned languages a lot. I started learning French and Dutch. And I can say I speak five languages so far: Indonesian, English, Italian, Spanish, and Portuguese. Well, I don't speak well. Not yet. I really need more practice. I'm still used to Indonesian and English because everything around me is either in Indonesian or English. But the only thing written in Italian around me is 'Pane del Giorno'. Oh, and 'I Gusti', but it's actually a Balinese name.

A real polyglot wouldn't say that I speak Italian, Spanish, or Portuguese, but yeah, if you speak those languages around me, InshaAllah I would understand you. I am able to have conversation in those languages. I also understand French and Dutch, but I can't say I speak those languages. Not yet.

But overall, I'm satisfied with my language goals.

And besides my goals, 2016 has been very nice and full of beautiful moments for me. But I'll tell you in another post. For now, I just wanna make some new resolutions.

Next year I'm gonna learn German, Greek, and Japanese. Yeah I'm gonna take some classes. German and Japanese classes would be easy, but Greek..  where should I take Greek class? Greece? Yeah maybe I should. I f'ing love that country and I'd be happy to live there with those extremely nice people (I'm a big fan of Italy, Greece, and Brazil and been to two of them).

And of course I still have my career, writing, art, and traveling goals. I'm just gonna tell you about my traveling goal.

I have this dream of visiting every single province in Italy. Why? Because Italy is freaking awesome and I freaking love that country, almost like I love myself. Yes, I wrote it right, myself, you don't need to correct me.

So Italy have Torino (Turin) in Piemonte (Piedmont), Como and Milano (Milan) in Lombardia (Lombardy), Venezia (Venice), Padova (Padua), and Verona in Veneto, Trieste in Friuli-Venezia Giulia, La Spezia in Liguria, Bologna, Parma, and Modena in Emilia Romagna, Perugia and Assisi in Umbria, Roma (Rome) in Lazio, Napoli (Naples) in Campania, Matera in Basilicata, Sicilia (Sicily), Sardegna (Sardinia), and of course... Toscana (Tuscany)! Firenze (Florence), Pisa, Siena, and Pistoia are both in Toscana region. There are lots of interesting provinces in Italy and I really need to visit all of them. They have 115 provinces and all of them are awesome! But you can Google why I should mention those provinces and regions above. That's why I wrote their names in Italian and English.

Yeah, I know my new year resolution sounds more like Italian tourism advertising.

I would say visit Indonesia too, but lately I feel like this country has been so much like a f***ing khilaf**. Sorry for being so bitter. Many bitter things have been happening in my lovely country.

Happy new year!

Just a Death Note or whatever you're supposed to call it

I hate to make a death note. Not that kinda death note, where you put the name of people you hate and the next day they'd be dead. No, I would love to make that one.

But here I'm talking about the note that you make before you die. Is it even called death note? Anyway, I hate that because usually, not long after someone makes a dead note, he/she dies. It's like they already know or something.

Of course I really wish I'm not gonna die soon, but, some people, people around me, people that I know, people that are around my age, celebrities, they just died.
Some of them died of illness, mostly cancer. It took months before they died. But some just died in a blink of an eye. Some because of accidents, sometimes even silly, weird, very unlikely accidents, and the other because of some quick-death-related illness, like heart attack. Well, mostly heart attack.

That's horrible. One night you slept and you just didn't wake up the next morning.
It made me think how lucky we are to be able to wake up every morning. To see one more sunrise everyday, one more morning. Okay, I didn't mean this article to be so dramatic, so I'll just stop with the waking up thing.

All the death of people I know, whether because I know them or just because they're famous, or because they're Game of Thrones characters, those death scared me.
For me, death is the saddest thing in the world. Either it's the death of the people you love or your own, they're just as sad. Thing is, you have to say goodbye. Forever.

I'm not really a fan of the after life, any theories of it, whatsoever. No, I don't believe any version of the after life. They're all just as silly.

So, when someone (including you) die, that's it. You won't meet your loved ones anymore. Then, if you're the one who lives, you'd start regretting all the things you've done or even worst, never done to or with your loved ones. You wish you'd spend more time with them, you wish you'd treat them better, you wish you've done better. You wish you had never done nor said anything that make them sad.

Maybe the most ideal death is like the one in the cancer movies. You know almost 100% you're gonna die before your loved ones, so you prepare everything, you make your note, telling anybody anything you wanna say.

Thing is, you don't know how, where, and when you're gonna die. So, make your death note now. Yeah or whatever you're supposed to call it.

There are still so many things I wanna do before I die. First, I wanna make sure that my life insurance payment is still paid.

Then the other things.
I wanna visit all 115 provinces in all 20 regions in Italy. I wanna visit all regions in Greece, all countries in Europe, and all continents in the world. Living beyond that dream would be freaking awesome!

I wanna watch Game of Thrones season 7. Let's hope that I would cross this from my list next year.

I wanna speak at least 30 languages. Or at least these specific languages: Italian, Spanish, Portuguese, French, Greek, Japanese, German, and Dutch. Or at least the first 6 of them. Right now I'm learning them and I can already communicate with Italian, Spanish, Portuguese, and a little bit French.

I wanna study philosophy, I wanna study anthropology, history, astronomy, mathematics, I wanna go back to college over and over again. I wish I live as long as the earth so I can learn everything.

I still have plenty on my wish list.

And of course, if I have to die first, I would say to my family how much I love them. How much they mean to me. How blessed I am to be born in such a lovely family. I aways wish to make them happy. The only thing on my priority list that I put higher than their happiness is...my own happiness.

Well, don't judge me. The only reason you wanna see your family happy is because it makes you happy. What else? So it's always about you anyway.
Which makes me think, is it actually selfish to wish to die before your loved ones? Maybe it is.

This is a bit out of the topic (since I probably have ADD, my thoughts always jumping), but if you have to choose, if you really have to choose, if the Joker or JigSaw put you in a game where you had to choose between killing your family and save everyone in the world, or kill yourself and killing everyone in the world, what would you choose?

But then again, why would being alive be that much of a big deal, anyway? I mean, most people believe that this life isn't permanent anyway. So, would it really matter to give your life to save many other lives?

Has anyone really found the true meaning of life?
Okay, so I failed to make a death note. It turned out to be the question of life and death all over again.

Pertemuan ke Dua

Senin, 21 November, 2016

Lo inget nggak sih, beberapa kali lo ditolong orang asing di saat lo sedang mengalami kesulitan di tempat umum, entah di jalan, di mal, di kendaraan umum, dsb? Mungkin orang itu dorongin mobil lo yang lagi mogok. Mungkin orang itu bayarin ongkos lo naik angkutan umum saat lo lupa bawa uang kecil dan supir/keneknya ngga punya kembalian. Mungkin orang itu minjemin e-toll-nya saat lo masuk GTO tapi lo lupa kalo lo ngga bawa e-toll.

Bantuan dari orang2 asing itu bisa kecil, bisa gede. Tapi yang jelas pada saat itu lo ngerasa sangat bersyukur dan berterimakasih. Lo berharap bisa bales kebaikan mereka. Tapi lo ngga bisa. Karena kalian ngga saling kenal, dan setelah kejadian itu mungkin lo udah ngga pernah ketemu lagi sama orang2 itu. Lo cuman bisa berdoa, semoga Tuhan membalas kebaikan mereka berkali lipat.

Tapi lo inget nggak sih tampang mereka kaya apa? Di antara sekian banyaknya orang asing yang pernah nolongin lo dengan ikhlasnya, ada nggak sih, satuuu aja yang bisa lo inget tampangnya kaya apa?

Saat lo ditolong, lo berharap suatu hari nanti lo bisa ketemu mereka lagi dan gantian nolongin mereka. Tapi masalahnya, lo inget muka mereka aja agak mustahil kan?

Mungkin sebenernya lo ketemu lagi sama mereka. Kalo pas kebetulan mereka butuh pertolongan lo sih, walaupun di pertemuan ke dua itu kalian sama2 lupa kalo pernah ketemu sebelumnya, pasti lo akan otomatis nolongin. Bukan karena lo inget itu siapa, tapi karena pada dasarnya manusia akan refleks menolong orang yang butuh pertolongan.

Masalahnya adalah, di pertemuan ke dua lo dengan orang yang pernah nolongin lo, mungkin kondisinya ngga seperti itu. Mungkin di pertemuan ke dua, dia adalah orang yang nyerobot antrian lo, atau nyalip mobil lo, atau motornya nyenggol mobil lo, atau ngerokok di deket lo, atau ngga ngasi lo jalan saat lo mau nyebrang di zebra cross, atau hal2 menyebalkan lainnya.

Mereka emang pernah nolongin lo, dan saat itu lo amat sangat berterimakasih. Tapi gimanapun juga, bukan salah lo dan bukan salah mereka, kalo kalian saling lupa muka satu sama lain. Saat lo ketemu lagi, orang itu udah bukan siapa2 buat lo. Saat dia melanggar hak lo, ya lo pasti marah.

Mungkin orang2 lain udah punya pemikiran seperti ini, atau mereka pada dasarnya udah baik aja ya, ngga kaya gue, cuma tiba2 gue punya ide untuk ngga marah sama orang asing.

Pas masi SD gue suka dibully sama anak2 lainnya. Orangtua gue selalu bilang, "Kamu jangan mau dong digituin. Kamu harus berani ngelawan mereka."

Akhirnya, sampe sekarang gue masih suka mikir, bahwa kalo hak gue dilanggar, gue harus marah, gue harus bales. Karena kalo ngga gitu, berarti gue pengecut. Gue jadi temperamental dan model2 senggol dikit bacok.

Tapi mulai sekarang, semoga gue bisa ngga pernah marah lagi sama orang2 asing yang ngerokok di deket gue, ngga ngasi jalan di zebra cross, atau bahkan mas2 pinggir jalan yang suka iseng godain.

Salah satu alasan gue adalah, mungkin di masa lalu mereka pernah nolongin gue, atau di masa depan bisa aja mereka akan nolongin gue. Gue cuma lupa aja muka mereka. Gue kan bukan binatang, yang ngga pernah lupa sama orang yang pernah nolongin. (Sekali2 lah binatang dikonotasikan dengan sesuatu yang positif)

Emang orang yang ngelanggar zebra cross, ngerokok sembarangan, nyerobot antrian itu salah, merugikan, dan ngeselin. Dan belom tentu juga mereka salah satu dari orang yang pernah nolongin lo. Tapi secara lo juga ngga inget muka penolong2 lo itu kaya apa, ya pukul rata aja lah, baik aja sama semua orang. Ngga ada ruginya ini.

Just Exploring Some of My Features

Thursday, October 27, 2016

Hi there! How are you guys? Yeah right! Like anyone would read this.

Anyway, lately I’ve been busy learning new languages. I know, I’ve been learning some languages since like… forever, but this time I’m doing this really seriously. Yeah I’m still using the Duolingo apps. Some would say it’s not really effective, but that’s not the only way I learn.

I have my own program. So, for me, so far Duolingo is still the best and most effective free apps to learn languages. But of course it’s not enough to really be able to communicate with those languages. So, I’ve made my own program.

First, I have a specific schedule for my Duolingo practice. For each language I’m learning at time, I have to practice 18 to 22 lessons a day. And I always have to make a note for each new lesson. Then, I have to practice reading articles and stories in the languages I’m learning. I would search articles and stories from google and try to translate it to English. Then I have to practice listening too. Usually I listen to the songs in the languages I’m learning, or watch Game of Thrones, Modern Family, or news in those languages.

I also have to write in those languages. That’s why, lately I always write in Italian, Spanish, and Portuguese in my blog. I haven’t write anything in Indonesian or English. And I only write simple things like introduction, food, animals, sports, hobbies. Because I’m practicing. Anyway, my life has been great. I just got back from a nice trip to Belitung. I’ve posted some photos on my instagram @astaripahleviofficial .

So, I’ve finished three languages in Duolingo: Italian, Spanish, and Portuguese. It doesn’t make me automatically fluent in those languages. I still need lots of practice, especially in Spanish and Portuguese. Everyday I read, watch, listen, and write anything in Italian, Spanish, and Portuguese. But I still need one more thing. I really need native speakers to really practice my oral. Hmm, that sounds wrong, doesn’t it?

And for now I just started learning French. It gives me a whole lot of new challenges. Yeah, French turns out to be very challenging compared to the other three languages from the same root. I still have to find the pattern. There are so many differences from the other three. I also need to work harder on the spelling and pronunciation.

But so far, it all went really well. Not just achieving my target everyday, I even have gone further than my target. On my schedule, I was supposed to finish Portuguese lesson by the end of October, and start learning French on the beginning of November. But I’ve finished my Portuguese lesson so much sooner than I was planning, and already been able to start my French lesson so much sooner than the schedule. I was supposed to start learning French four days from now, but these last three or four days I have already finished about 20 – 25 % of the lessons. If I could keep it that way, I might have finished my French lesson by the 10^th of November. So I’m gonna have a long break before my Dutch and German lessons.

And why so obsessed? What’s with all this obsession and ambition to speak all those languages?

Actually I’ve been thinking. Just like a smartphone, we were created with lots of features. Some smartphones can do lots of things, from making your own music videos to tracking airplanes, yet some people just use their smartphones to take perfect selfies. I mean… wtf?

Well, it’s actually the same with us humans. We were created with so many features. Some people can run really fast, some people can dive very deep under the sea, some people can climb the highest mountains, some people can play so many musical instruments, some people can speak more than 50 languages! No, seriously, there are at least three men that I know of, that can speak 60 something languages. Seriously! It’s really awesome!

Yeah, we have so many features! Yet we only do what? Go to school, graduate, get a boring job, get married, have children, and die? Seriously? That’s sad.

So, me, learning these languages, is just one of my ways to use my features. After these languages, I might learn something else, like music, art, philosophy, cooking, anything more interesting than making a family. Well, I’m not saying that making family is bad. It is not bad. In fact, it is very good. For those busy making family out there, you’re all the nicest and most selfless people. Thank you.

It’s just not interesting for someone like me. I don’t think I have it on my list of features.

Anyway, that’s it for today. See you later guys!