Just This Thought

Saturday, February 3, 2018

Day 27: Conversely, write about something that's kicking ass right now

I just had this conversation with my sister. Yeah we always talk about everything, mostly about people and life.

And what's really kicking ass is our realization of the so-called 'the one'.

You know, in getting married, in choosing someone to spend the rest of our life with, we have to find 'the one'. 'She's the one', 'He's the one', 'When you know, you know'.

So, ideally, when you find 'the one', you guys get married to each other and love each other till death do you part.

Ideally.

But some people get married just because we have to, especially here in Indonesia. So, many people are trapped in an unhappy marriage because they have made a commitment to love the wrong person for the rest of their lives.

But that's not what's kicking ass. Me and my sister are the idealist type when it comes to love and marriage. We better not to get married than to have to get married with the person we're not in love with.

What's really kicking ass is, our job, what we do in life, is actually supposed to be exactly like that! We're supposed to find the one, the job that's really our true love.

As in marriage life, me and so many other people, are getting married with the wrong jobs, just because we don't want to be jobless. We don't love our job. I don't love my job.

You know what I really love? Writing. Writing is that poor guy with no money that you wouldn't marry because he couldn't give you stability. But you know what? Fuck it! I love this guy. I'm gonna marry this guy and we're gonna get rich together!

About Self Improvement

Friday, February 2, 2018

Day 26: an Area in My Life that I'd Like to Improve

How do you describe 'an area in someone's life'?

Anyway, I have plenty of them.

I want to improve my artistic skills, especially in making awesome sketches. Lately I'm so in love with this artist, @drewgrahamarts. I've always been a huge fan of Disney animation style. I love to see how they create all those Disney characters. I love how comical yet real they seem: their facial expressions, their proportions, their movements. I'm a Disney worshipper, and always try to draw like the Disney illustrators. And this Drew Graham is really amazing at making portraits of famous figures/characters in a very beautiful Disney style. And lately he makes a lot of illustrations from my recently favourite movie 'The Greatest Showman'! Omg he's really awesome. He inspired me! He made me really wanna improve my skills!

And of course, I want to improve my skills in communicating in foreign languages! I want to be a polyglot like Benny Lewis, or Mark Manson, or even Ziad Fazah! I'm currently learning Japanese and Greek. But I know I haven't done it properly. I'm also still practicing with my Portugese, French, Dutch, and German. I can say I speak Italian and Spanish pretty fluently, but I don't really listen well. So, I can hold a writing conversation in Italian or Spanish, but not oral conversation. In doing oral conversation, people have to speak slowly so I can understand what they say. It's better with Italian though. I can hold an oral daily conversation in Italian. Yep! Really need a lot of improvement in this area.

What else? Of course writing! Writing is the one thing I always enjoy doing. I've always wanted to be a writer. I love telling stories. I love dramas as long as I'm not involved in them. Lol!

But the most important thing, I really need to improve my financial condition! I really need to travel abroad as much as I want to. There are so many places in the world I need to see.

I still have a lot to say about areas I want to improve. But I also need time to do so, and I've been spending almost an hour writing this. So, see you in the next post!

Wrath and the Other Sins

Thursday, February 1, 2018

Day 25: Think of any word, search for that word in Google image, write something about the 11th image

I woke up around 6 I think.

I didn't really check on the time. But I needed some time to think about the dream I had.

So, I had this dream where I played some kinda video game. It was in the languages I learned: German, Japanese, etc. The rule of the game was to select a group of words. There are some words, and there is this category, then we had to point out which words belong to that category.

After two or three games that I didn't really understand and now I can't even remember the words, suddenly there was this category of 7 deadly sins.

You know what? I've never really known or cared about the 7 sins or anything biblical. I am not even a Christian. And even if I had to mention some of the 7 sins, I would have said 'envy', 'sloth', 'greed', or 'gluttony'. Those were all I know.

But the one word really stuck on me from that dream was 'wrath'. In fact, the other words didn't appear at all. It was just 'wrath'.

So, the word for this challenge would be...

WRATH!

I've searched the 11th image on google, but it wasn't interesting at all. It was just the word 'wrath' written in very tacky letters and colors.

Anyway, after that dream, I woke up. It was still pretty dark, but I could hear my sister leaving for work, so it must be sometime before six.

I opened my eyes, but I still layed down on my bed, thinking of this word 'wrath'.

I realized how 'wrath' has always been in my life everyday. Even though I've always tried so hard not to show it, I feel so much anger all the time. Every little thing irritates me. Every little thing can trigger my wrath. And I think that's why I'm not happy.

Then I was also thinking of all the other sins I've made. I was thinking of all the sins that don't seem to matter, but they indeed matter!

The seven sins, and then the 'little' sins in my own religion like when you do something good and then you expect people to notice and appreciate it. It's called 'riya' and it is a sin.

When you talk shit about people, when you gossip, when you spread a lie, it's a sin in my religion. I think it's called 'ghibah' or 'julid', I'm not really sure. And when you have bad prejudice, or you judge other people, it's also a sin.

And I've done all of those sins. All this time I felt like I was still better than most people because I never kill, rape, and steal, but I'm not. I'm a sinner.

No, these sins don't directly do bad things to people, but actually, these sins are very dangerous. Because they don't seem to be dangerous, don't seem to be 'that bad', but they are the roots of all the worst things people have done.

When the so called religious people think they're religious, just because they've done all the rituals to praise God, but they forget to avoid all those 'tiny' sins, that's where the religious groups become bad.

Those 'tiny' sins are invisible. That's why they are dangerous. Those 'tiny' sins wouldn't be blamed for all the chaos in the world, all the terrors and wars. Religions are always blamed for that. I always blamed religions for all the wars and terrors.

But all religions I know actually teach about good things. Me, most people, and people in power don't take those good things, only the rituals, so you know, we can easily make terrors and wars in the name of... Religion! Damn, now I feel the wrath again.

I gotta stop now. I don't need to think so much about things I can't change. The only thing I can do right now is controling myself from wrath and other sins.

Lesson Learned

Wednesday, January 31, 2018

Day 24: a Lesson I learned the Hard Way

So I've trusted the wrong person once. Not gonna happen anymore.

This bitch used to be my friend. I was pretty close to her, or at least that's what I thought. She was in the same office with me, and she was pretty active in my community.

She had a travel agent, and I was planning a trip to Greece for the first time. I was and still am too lazy to book a flight by myself. Yes. I know. Stupid.

So, I had a friend that I had known for a while, or so I thought. And this friend could take care of everything I need to go to Greece: the tickets, the hotels, the visa.

I wanted to go by myself. But suddenly the whole family (minus my brother) wanted to come with me. So I trusted this bitch to take care of me and my sister's tickets, the hotel rooms, and almost the visa.

But she turned out to be a thief! She stole our money and ran away. She had also stolen a lot of other people's money. She got caught, but the money had already gone. I still went to Greece with my mom, dad, and sister, but with my dad's money.

It is still the worst thing ever happened to me. To the ones complaining about being 'backstabbed' by a friend, just because that friend talked shit about you or 'stole your lover', my friend stole a lot of money from me! That's what you can call the real betrayal!

Lesson learned. In the hardest way. I lost a lot of money because of my stupidity.

So, from that experience, I would never trust any friend with my money ever again. I would always take care of my trip by myself. I would never brought a thief to a police station ever again! It doesn't give me back my money. I should have robbed her back!

I trully would feel better if she was raped in prison.

Dear You

Tuesday, January 30, 2018

Day 23: Write a Letter to Someone, Anyone

Dear whoever created this 30 days challenge,

I don't know what I want to write and to whom I'm supposed to write it.

I have so much to tell but I've told everything to everyone since I'm pretty chatty lately.

So here, my letter to you instead.

Shuffling My Music

Monday, January 29, 2018

Day 22: Put your music on shuffle and post the first 10 Songs

Okay I only have 231 songs in my phone, let's see what are gonna be played. I kinda wish GoT opening song would be one! So excited now! Lol!

1. 'The Fools Who Dream' (Mia's audition) - Emma Stone, from the movie 'La La Land'
I downloaded this right after watching the movie. Oh I really love this song! Love the movie too! And love Emma Stone so much! Always love her! She's so talented, beautiful, and her voice is amazing!

2. 'Black Mountain Side' - Led Zeppelin
Hey I rarely listen to this one. I've had it on my computer, but I've never listened to this on my phone since I downloaded it here.

3. 'Carry on my wayward son' - Kansas, OST 'Supernatural'
Me and my lil bro used to watch the TV series 'Supernatural'. We're like Dean and Sam. This is the opening song of most of the episodes.

4. 'Black Dog' - Led Zeppelin
Okay, 90 of 200 songs on my phone are LZ's, so we might have 2 - 3 of them played on this shuffling game.
This one is one of my favourite! I love to sing it out loud and also tried so hard to play the drum part (only the very simple version of it), and, when I go to karaoke, singing this song is a must!

5. 'Bring it on Home' - Led Zeppelin
Okay, another LZ. I love this one, especially the intro.

6. 'Boogie with Stu' - Led Zeppelin
LZ again? I swear, I have another musicians too here on my phone! Hey, btw, I haven't heard of this song for a very long time. In fact, as a self-proclaimed LZ huge fan, I gotta admit, I needed to check on my music player to see the title.

7. 'Bonzo's montreux' - Led Zeppelin
Okay, this shuffle gotta be kidding me! But anyway, I really love this one.

8. 'Almost is never enough' - Ariana Grande
Hey! I have this on my phone? Omg! I love this! I actually like Ariana Grande when she's not singing annoying songs.

9. 'Remember Me' - Benjamin Bratt, OST 'Coco'
Aww! I love this song! Actually I prefer Hector's (Gael Garcia Bernal) version. It's far more beautiful. But this Ernesto De La Cruz version is really kicking ass!

Okay... let's wait for the last song... What would it be?

10. 'Carouselambra' - Led Zeppelin
What?? Another LZ? Okay, so, 6 of 10 songs played are LZ. I think this music player just loves LZ too much!

What I Would Teach to My Children

Sunday, January 28, 2018

Day 21: What 3 Lessons Do You Want Your Children Learn from You?


First: "Never hate your enemies. It affects your judgement."

Second: "A man who doesn't spend time with his family can never be a real man."

Third: "Never tell anyone outside the family what you are thinking again."

Okay that's not really original. Just in case you didn't notice, that's what Don Vito Corleone taught his children.

What should I say? I don't even wanna have any children, not biological children at least. You know what they say about dogs? "Adopt, don't buy."

I 100% agree with that. So here's what I say about kids: "Adopt, don't breed."

I mean, there are already too many babies in the world, and a lot of them are orphans. Why cook more food when we already have so much in the fridge?

So, since my children would be adopted, the first lesson would be, "You're adopted. There's nothing wrong with that. Don't be such a drama queen about that."

Then there are these 3 most important lessons.

If I taught these lessons, I wouldn't walk the talk, because right now I'm really struggling to walk these words. But anyway, I'd love to share these ideas of ideal life.

1. Love the earth, the animals, and the environment

Love the earth, respect its beautiful nature, because so far, earth is the only planet we can live in. We've got no choice but keeping it alive!

Minimize the use of electricity, air conditioner, water, and gas. Recycle the non-organic wastes. Make use of the organic wastes. Use eco-friendly products and make sure they are really eco-friendly. Use solar panel or any other alternative energy that is more eco-friendly. Plant trees as much as possible.

Protect the animals. You don't have to be a vegan. I mean, all those tree lovers still eat vegies, don't they? I'm still gonna be proud if you became a vegan, as long as you didn't force other people to be vegan.

But there's a lot you can do without being vegan. Don't torture animals. If you have to kill it for food or self-defense, do it quick and don't let them be in pain. Do whatever you can to stop animal cruelty. Save the strayed or injured animals. Respect them. Before we were here, they were here first. We're the strongest and smartest animals so far, so it's our duty to protect the weak ones.

2. Keep an open mind

There's no absolute truth unless it's scientifically proven. We don't know anything about the unproven things. And even 'proves' are not always really proven. Keep learning about everything. Explore this world. Discover new ideas and theories. You can create yours too.

Keep learning. The moment you start thinking that you are smart, you start thinking that you can  stop learning, and that's when you're getting dumb.

Live the way you believe, but let others do theirs, even if it was so different from yours. Respect any opinion, no matter how idiotic it sounds.

3. Be healthy

Be healthy, mentally and physically. Health is everything. Yes you can still die from accidents, but so can the unhealthy ones.

If you're healthy, you'll have more time and energy to do whatever you need to do, whatever you want to do.

Eat enough vegetable, fruit, proteins, vitamin, do physical exercise everyday, don't smoke, don't use any drugs, even for medication if possible, stay natural, wash your hands, brush your teeth, stay hygiene, and do everything to keep you healthy.

You can still be sick, but at least you minimize the chance.

Oh, and have enough health, critical illness, accidents, and life insurance! Because the risk will still be there, and trust me, you don't wanna be poor when it comes.

Be ready for everything!

Okay, there are the three important lessons I'd teach my children or any children.