I hate to make a death note. Not that kinda death note, where you put the name of people you hate and the next day they'd be dead. No, I would love to make that one.
But here I'm talking about the note that you make before you die. Is it even called death note? Anyway, I hate that because usually, not long after someone makes a dead note, he/she dies. It's like they already know or something.
Of course I really wish I'm not gonna die soon, but, some people, people around me, people that I know, people that are around my age, celebrities, they just died.
Some of them died of illness, mostly cancer. It took months before they died. But some just died in a blink of an eye. Some because of accidents, sometimes even silly, weird, very unlikely accidents, and the other because of some quick-death-related illness, like heart attack. Well, mostly heart attack.
That's horrible. One night you slept and you just didn't wake up the next morning.
It made me think how lucky we are to be able to wake up every morning. To see one more sunrise everyday, one more morning. Okay, I didn't mean this article to be so dramatic, so I'll just stop with the waking up thing.
All the death of people I know, whether because I know them or just because they're famous, or because they're Game of Thrones characters, those death scared me.
For me, death is the saddest thing in the world. Either it's the death of the people you love or your own, they're just as sad. Thing is, you have to say goodbye. Forever.
I'm not really a fan of the after life, any theories of it, whatsoever. No, I don't believe any version of the after life. They're all just as silly.
So, when someone (including you) die, that's it. You won't meet your loved ones anymore. Then, if you're the one who lives, you'd start regretting all the things you've done or even worst, never done to or with your loved ones. You wish you'd spend more time with them, you wish you'd treat them better, you wish you've done better. You wish you had never done nor said anything that make them sad.
Maybe the most ideal death is like the one in the cancer movies. You know almost 100% you're gonna die before your loved ones, so you prepare everything, you make your note, telling anybody anything you wanna say.
Thing is, you don't know how, where, and when you're gonna die. So, make your death note now. Yeah or whatever you're supposed to call it.
There are still so many things I wanna do before I die. First, I wanna make sure that my life insurance payment is still paid.
Then the other things.
I wanna visit all 115 provinces in all 20 regions in Italy. I wanna visit all regions in Greece, all countries in Europe, and all continents in the world. Living beyond that dream would be freaking awesome!
I wanna watch Game of Thrones season 7. Let's hope that I would cross this from my list next year.
I wanna speak at least 30 languages. Or at least these specific languages: Italian, Spanish, Portuguese, French, Greek, Japanese, German, and Dutch. Or at least the first 6 of them. Right now I'm learning them and I can already communicate with Italian, Spanish, Portuguese, and a little bit French.
I wanna study philosophy, I wanna study anthropology, history, astronomy, mathematics, I wanna go back to college over and over again. I wish I live as long as the earth so I can learn everything.
I still have plenty on my wish list.
And of course, if I have to die first, I would say to my family how much I love them. How much they mean to me. How blessed I am to be born in such a lovely family. I aways wish to make them happy. The only thing on my priority list that I put higher than their happiness is...my own happiness.
Well, don't judge me. The only reason you wanna see your family happy is because it makes you happy. What else? So it's always about you anyway.
Which makes me think, is it actually selfish to wish to die before your loved ones? Maybe it is.
This is a bit out of the topic (since I probably have ADD, my thoughts always jumping), but if you have to choose, if you really have to choose, if the Joker or JigSaw put you in a game where you had to choose between killing your family and save everyone in the world, or kill yourself and killing everyone in the world, what would you choose?
But then again, why would being alive be that much of a big deal, anyway? I mean, most people believe that this life isn't permanent anyway. So, would it really matter to give your life to save many other lives?
Has anyone really found the true meaning of life?
Okay, so I failed to make a death note. It turned out to be the question of life and death all over again.
But here I'm talking about the note that you make before you die. Is it even called death note? Anyway, I hate that because usually, not long after someone makes a dead note, he/she dies. It's like they already know or something.
Of course I really wish I'm not gonna die soon, but, some people, people around me, people that I know, people that are around my age, celebrities, they just died.
Some of them died of illness, mostly cancer. It took months before they died. But some just died in a blink of an eye. Some because of accidents, sometimes even silly, weird, very unlikely accidents, and the other because of some quick-death-related illness, like heart attack. Well, mostly heart attack.
That's horrible. One night you slept and you just didn't wake up the next morning.
It made me think how lucky we are to be able to wake up every morning. To see one more sunrise everyday, one more morning. Okay, I didn't mean this article to be so dramatic, so I'll just stop with the waking up thing.
All the death of people I know, whether because I know them or just because they're famous, or because they're Game of Thrones characters, those death scared me.
For me, death is the saddest thing in the world. Either it's the death of the people you love or your own, they're just as sad. Thing is, you have to say goodbye. Forever.
I'm not really a fan of the after life, any theories of it, whatsoever. No, I don't believe any version of the after life. They're all just as silly.
So, when someone (including you) die, that's it. You won't meet your loved ones anymore. Then, if you're the one who lives, you'd start regretting all the things you've done or even worst, never done to or with your loved ones. You wish you'd spend more time with them, you wish you'd treat them better, you wish you've done better. You wish you had never done nor said anything that make them sad.
Maybe the most ideal death is like the one in the cancer movies. You know almost 100% you're gonna die before your loved ones, so you prepare everything, you make your note, telling anybody anything you wanna say.
Thing is, you don't know how, where, and when you're gonna die. So, make your death note now. Yeah or whatever you're supposed to call it.
There are still so many things I wanna do before I die. First, I wanna make sure that my life insurance payment is still paid.
Then the other things.
I wanna visit all 115 provinces in all 20 regions in Italy. I wanna visit all regions in Greece, all countries in Europe, and all continents in the world. Living beyond that dream would be freaking awesome!
I wanna watch Game of Thrones season 7. Let's hope that I would cross this from my list next year.
I wanna speak at least 30 languages. Or at least these specific languages: Italian, Spanish, Portuguese, French, Greek, Japanese, German, and Dutch. Or at least the first 6 of them. Right now I'm learning them and I can already communicate with Italian, Spanish, Portuguese, and a little bit French.
I wanna study philosophy, I wanna study anthropology, history, astronomy, mathematics, I wanna go back to college over and over again. I wish I live as long as the earth so I can learn everything.
I still have plenty on my wish list.
And of course, if I have to die first, I would say to my family how much I love them. How much they mean to me. How blessed I am to be born in such a lovely family. I aways wish to make them happy. The only thing on my priority list that I put higher than their happiness is...my own happiness.
Well, don't judge me. The only reason you wanna see your family happy is because it makes you happy. What else? So it's always about you anyway.
Which makes me think, is it actually selfish to wish to die before your loved ones? Maybe it is.
This is a bit out of the topic (since I probably have ADD, my thoughts always jumping), but if you have to choose, if you really have to choose, if the Joker or JigSaw put you in a game where you had to choose between killing your family and save everyone in the world, or kill yourself and killing everyone in the world, what would you choose?
But then again, why would being alive be that much of a big deal, anyway? I mean, most people believe that this life isn't permanent anyway. So, would it really matter to give your life to save many other lives?
Has anyone really found the true meaning of life?
Okay, so I failed to make a death note. It turned out to be the question of life and death all over again.
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