Lesson Learned

Wednesday, January 31, 2018

Day 24: a Lesson I learned the Hard Way

So I've trusted the wrong person once. Not gonna happen anymore.

This bitch used to be my friend. I was pretty close to her, or at least that's what I thought. She was in the same office with me, and she was pretty active in my community.

She had a travel agent, and I was planning a trip to Greece for the first time. I was and still am too lazy to book a flight by myself. Yes. I know. Stupid.

So, I had a friend that I had known for a while, or so I thought. And this friend could take care of everything I need to go to Greece: the tickets, the hotels, the visa.

I wanted to go by myself. But suddenly the whole family (minus my brother) wanted to come with me. So I trusted this bitch to take care of me and my sister's tickets, the hotel rooms, and almost the visa.

But she turned out to be a thief! She stole our money and ran away. She had also stolen a lot of other people's money. She got caught, but the money had already gone. I still went to Greece with my mom, dad, and sister, but with my dad's money.

It is still the worst thing ever happened to me. To the ones complaining about being 'backstabbed' by a friend, just because that friend talked shit about you or 'stole your lover', my friend stole a lot of money from me! That's what you can call the real betrayal!

Lesson learned. In the hardest way. I lost a lot of money because of my stupidity.

So, from that experience, I would never trust any friend with my money ever again. I would always take care of my trip by myself. I would never brought a thief to a police station ever again! It doesn't give me back my money. I should have robbed her back!

I trully would feel better if she was raped in prison.

Dear You

Tuesday, January 30, 2018

Day 23: Write a Letter to Someone, Anyone

Dear whoever created this 30 days challenge,

I don't know what I want to write and to whom I'm supposed to write it.

I have so much to tell but I've told everything to everyone since I'm pretty chatty lately.

So here, my letter to you instead.

Shuffling My Music

Monday, January 29, 2018

Day 22: Put your music on shuffle and post the first 10 Songs

Okay I only have 231 songs in my phone, let's see what are gonna be played. I kinda wish GoT opening song would be one! So excited now! Lol!

1. 'The Fools Who Dream' (Mia's audition) - Emma Stone, from the movie 'La La Land'
I downloaded this right after watching the movie. Oh I really love this song! Love the movie too! And love Emma Stone so much! Always love her! She's so talented, beautiful, and her voice is amazing!

2. 'Black Mountain Side' - Led Zeppelin
Hey I rarely listen to this one. I've had it on my computer, but I've never listened to this on my phone since I downloaded it here.

3. 'Carry on my wayward son' - Kansas, OST 'Supernatural'
Me and my lil bro used to watch the TV series 'Supernatural'. We're like Dean and Sam. This is the opening song of most of the episodes.

4. 'Black Dog' - Led Zeppelin
Okay, 90 of 200 songs on my phone are LZ's, so we might have 2 - 3 of them played on this shuffling game.
This one is one of my favourite! I love to sing it out loud and also tried so hard to play the drum part (only the very simple version of it), and, when I go to karaoke, singing this song is a must!

5. 'Bring it on Home' - Led Zeppelin
Okay, another LZ. I love this one, especially the intro.

6. 'Boogie with Stu' - Led Zeppelin
LZ again? I swear, I have another musicians too here on my phone! Hey, btw, I haven't heard of this song for a very long time. In fact, as a self-proclaimed LZ huge fan, I gotta admit, I needed to check on my music player to see the title.

7. 'Bonzo's montreux' - Led Zeppelin
Okay, this shuffle gotta be kidding me! But anyway, I really love this one.

8. 'Almost is never enough' - Ariana Grande
Hey! I have this on my phone? Omg! I love this! I actually like Ariana Grande when she's not singing annoying songs.

9. 'Remember Me' - Benjamin Bratt, OST 'Coco'
Aww! I love this song! Actually I prefer Hector's (Gael Garcia Bernal) version. It's far more beautiful. But this Ernesto De La Cruz version is really kicking ass!

Okay... let's wait for the last song... What would it be?

10. 'Carouselambra' - Led Zeppelin
What?? Another LZ? Okay, so, 6 of 10 songs played are LZ. I think this music player just loves LZ too much!

What I Would Teach to My Children

Sunday, January 28, 2018

Day 21: What 3 Lessons Do You Want Your Children Learn from You?


First: "Never hate your enemies. It affects your judgement."

Second: "A man who doesn't spend time with his family can never be a real man."

Third: "Never tell anyone outside the family what you are thinking again."

Okay that's not really original. Just in case you didn't notice, that's what Don Vito Corleone taught his children.

What should I say? I don't even wanna have any children, not biological children at least. You know what they say about dogs? "Adopt, don't buy."

I 100% agree with that. So here's what I say about kids: "Adopt, don't breed."

I mean, there are already too many babies in the world, and a lot of them are orphans. Why cook more food when we already have so much in the fridge?

So, since my children would be adopted, the first lesson would be, "You're adopted. There's nothing wrong with that. Don't be such a drama queen about that."

Then there are these 3 most important lessons.

If I taught these lessons, I wouldn't walk the talk, because right now I'm really struggling to walk these words. But anyway, I'd love to share these ideas of ideal life.

1. Love the earth, the animals, and the environment

Love the earth, respect its beautiful nature, because so far, earth is the only planet we can live in. We've got no choice but keeping it alive!

Minimize the use of electricity, air conditioner, water, and gas. Recycle the non-organic wastes. Make use of the organic wastes. Use eco-friendly products and make sure they are really eco-friendly. Use solar panel or any other alternative energy that is more eco-friendly. Plant trees as much as possible.

Protect the animals. You don't have to be a vegan. I mean, all those tree lovers still eat vegies, don't they? I'm still gonna be proud if you became a vegan, as long as you didn't force other people to be vegan.

But there's a lot you can do without being vegan. Don't torture animals. If you have to kill it for food or self-defense, do it quick and don't let them be in pain. Do whatever you can to stop animal cruelty. Save the strayed or injured animals. Respect them. Before we were here, they were here first. We're the strongest and smartest animals so far, so it's our duty to protect the weak ones.

2. Keep an open mind

There's no absolute truth unless it's scientifically proven. We don't know anything about the unproven things. And even 'proves' are not always really proven. Keep learning about everything. Explore this world. Discover new ideas and theories. You can create yours too.

Keep learning. The moment you start thinking that you are smart, you start thinking that you can  stop learning, and that's when you're getting dumb.

Live the way you believe, but let others do theirs, even if it was so different from yours. Respect any opinion, no matter how idiotic it sounds.

3. Be healthy

Be healthy, mentally and physically. Health is everything. Yes you can still die from accidents, but so can the unhealthy ones.

If you're healthy, you'll have more time and energy to do whatever you need to do, whatever you want to do.

Eat enough vegetable, fruit, proteins, vitamin, do physical exercise everyday, don't smoke, don't use any drugs, even for medication if possible, stay natural, wash your hands, brush your teeth, stay hygiene, and do everything to keep you healthy.

You can still be sick, but at least you minimize the chance.

Oh, and have enough health, critical illness, accidents, and life insurance! Because the risk will still be there, and trust me, you don't wanna be poor when it comes.

Be ready for everything!

Okay, there are the three important lessons I'd teach my children or any children.

Speaking of My First Love...

Saturday, January 27, 2018

Day 19: Discuss Your First Love

Damn! I just realized I missed day 19. Yesterday was supposed to be the 19th day, not 20th!

Anyway, here's the 19th day.

Today's challenge is to discuss my first love. Well, define 'love'. Because if celebrity crushes count, my first love ever would be... Freddie Mercury!

Oh Freddie Mercury! How can I forget? The moment that he stepped into the room he took my breath away!

No, of course that didn't happen like that. I'm hoping anyone knows the reference though.

So, Freddie Mercury, I think he's the very first celebrity I've been a fan of. So, one day in 1992, I was six, I had a fever, I was really ill, and my dad played me the laser disc of his concert. It was his duet with Montserrat Caballé, singing the theme songs for 1992 Summer Olympic.

He was so charming, entertaining, beautiful, and his voice was, still is, and will always be the most beautiful voice I've ever heard. Forgive me for exaggerating, he's my first love, okay?

There are two songs that I really like until now, 'How Can I Go On' and, the best song in the world, 'Barcelona'. Okay, for the last 7-8 years I've been saying that 'The Fool on the Hill' was the best song ever, but now that I started to listen to 'Barcelona' again, no, 'Barcelona' is the best song I've ever heard.

Okay, so, I fell in love with Freddie Mercury. Then my dad told me that this guy had just passed away a year before. So my first love was a dead guy.

AIDS was the first dangerous disease I've ever known about, because I asked my dad why Freddie died, and he told me that the guy died of AIDS.

But I was still in love with him. I started to love Queen's songs. So, Queen was the first music group I've ever been a fan of. And until now, I still think Freddie Mercury was the best performer I know.

I think, I'm unconsciously influenced a lot by Freddie Mercury. I always imagine that I was him. He's my spirit animal.

I wrote in previous posts that, if I decided to adopt a child one day, I'd name him Farrokh Bulsara, Freddie's real name. I even named my former dog Farrokh Bulsara.

Okay, maybe he's more of an idol for me rather than first love.

So does it mean I failed today's challenge?

Some other times I'll try again to write about first love. Right now I can't think of anyone but the celebs.

Celebrity Crushes

Friday, January 26, 2018

Day 20: Three Celebrity Crushes

Only three?? Come on! I need more!

Okay, recently I'm kinda obsessed with these celebrities:

1. Hugh Jackman
I wasn't a big fan of Wolverine. Isn't it his biggest role? But when I watched 'Les Miserables', I was so in love! I love that movie, the actors are so talented! Hugh is so talented! His act was great, his voice... omg I really love his voice! And then I didn't really think of him at all, I didn't even follow him in any social media. But after 'The Greatest Showman', I just can't stop watching his videos and stalking his Instagram! He jumped into the top of my hottest guys list, beating the one who's now number 2....

2. Jason Momoa
Oh yeaaahh! He's the sexiest man on earth, at least before I've seen TGS. Actually, Khal Drogo is the hottest guy! I fell in love with Jason Momoa as Khal Drogo. But overall, this guy simply has whatever it takes to be sexy. He's super big, he's tall and muscular, he's got the nicest ass I've ever seen, he's so manly and charming, full of energy, and seems to be a very nice guy.

3. Ronaldo (Brazilian)? Ben Affleck? Milo Ventimiglia?
I can't really choose. But I think I'll go with Milo, because I've talked about Ronaldo and Ben Affleck a lot. I'm a huge fan of 'This is Us'. I've liked Milo since 'Gilmore Girls'. He's always been on my top 50 list. But 'This is Us' launched him to number 3! His role as the hot dad Jack Pearson with dat ass. That sexy ass needs its own credit.

Okay, there, my three celebrity crushes!

30 Facts About Me

Thursday, January 25, 2018

Day 18: 30 Facts about Me

1. I'm a gemini and it's somewhat important. Lol.

2. I learn Italian, Spanish, Portuguese, French, Dutch, German, Greek, and Japanese. But right now I only speak Italian and a bit of Spanish and Portuguese. I can write in 7 of those 8 languages tho'.

3. I'm not a good listener, partly because my hearing is not good, but also because I'm a self-centred prick.

4. I'm so obsessed about Italy. I want to visit every province of it, and I can tell you all of their names. I can sing Italian National Anthem.

5. I can also sing the national anthems of England, US, Chile, Uruguay, Argentina, and Brazil. And of course I can sing my own national anthem. But who can't sing their own national anthem?

6. My favourite sport is football (soccer). D'oh! Yeah it's obvious. But the interesting fact is, I used to hate it. Not just didn't like it, but hate it. Because everyone around me loved it, and I was born a pretentious hipster, so I hate it. But when I watched Ronaldo in World Cup 1998... Wow! Football is damn beautiful. And it turned out to be fun, liking a popular thing like that.

7. My favourite football player is Ronaldo, the Brazilian one. He's the best! When I was 14, Ronaldo got injured very badly, and I used to pray for his healing every night.

8. I used to be afraid of dogs. The first dog I was brave to touch was Koski, my neighbor's dog. Since I have my own dog, I'm not afraid of dogs anymore. Should I have my own ghost then?

9. Even tho' I love physical activities, I hate physical exercise. It's boring as hell!

10. My favourite band ever is Led Zeppelin, but my favourite vocalist is and will always be Freddie Mercury.

11. I don't wanna have a biological child, but if I can adopt and name a baby or more, I'd name them Salvatore, Marius Pontmercy, Farrokh Bulsara, Karac Pendragon, Garuda Pancasila, or Margono for boys, and Astari Pahlevi jr, Indonesia Raya, or Savitri for girls. Margono and Savitri are the names of my paternal grandparents. Salvatore means saviour. You can just google to know the rest of the names. Phew! So many children names for the one doesn't want any.

12. I love mathematics, and can play with mathematics formulas for hours. No, don't expect me to be so great at math. I just love it.

13. I'm a Game of Thrones fan. My favourite character is Queen Margaery Tyrell (technically it's Baratheon tho'). But I'm a loyal supporter of Daenerys Targaryen.

14. I'm a big fan of Spice Girls. I love them! And I'm pretty sure I could answer any trivia quiz about them.

15. The first celebrity I've ever been a fan of was Freddie Mercury. One day, I was 7 and very ill, and my dad played me the video of his duet with Montserrat Caballé, singing that epic song 'Barcelona', and I fell in love with him and the song. He was very charismatic, entertaining, and original.

16. I love to read manga too, but only Sailor Moon, Candy-Candy, Doraemon, Detective Conan, Kungfu Boy, Miiko, and some football manga.

17. My favourite superhero is Batman because he's rich, multilingual, and master various martial art. I'm also a fan of Marvel's The Punisher because he does exactly what I want to do to the criminals.

18. My favourite authors are Mario Puzo, Pramoedya Ananta Toer, and George RR Martin, but...

19. My favourite book is 'Perfume' by Patrick Süskind.

20. Just like Freddie Mercury, I love opera. I especially love the ones from Giacomo Puccini.

21. I secretly want to be a stage actress. Now it's not a secret anymore.

22. I've decided not to get married since I was a kid. I've always known I wanted to be a successful business woman, that is also an author and an artist.

23. The person I love the most is my father. He's my everything. I'm daddy's girl. When my mom and dad fight, I always automatically take dad's side. It's stupid, I know. I feel very possessive and protective over him. His happiness is (almost) everything for me. But I still care more about myself and my own happiness.

24. I'm far from manly, but sometimes I feel like I am a man, a girly man.

25. I really, really hate this little house lizard, cicak. Yes only cicak. I don't hate other reptiles or other lizards. Lizards are cute.

26. I love black olive, raw salmon, fresh oyster, and cheese.

27. I like big butts and I cannot lie.

28. I love classic cars.

29. I can't drive.

30. I can't swim.

Gemini and Proud

Wednesday, January 24, 2018

Day 17: Post about your zodiac sign, and whether or not it fits you

Well, I love talking about zodiac sign!

I'm a gemini and proud, because my moon is in Leo, and Leo is everything about pride.

It's not like I believe in zodiac sign. There are so many examples of people who don't match their zodiac signs, even after the more detailed reading (Moon sign, Mercury sign, etc).

But I happen to be just like whatever those sources say about a Gemini.

Here are some Twitter quotes about Gemini:

"Gemini is willing to explore the unfamiliar."
Totally me. Unfamiliar things always attract me. I know, who aren't attracted to the unfamiliar things? Right? Most people are.

"In love, Gemini can be light-hearted, fickle, flirtatious, and somewhat unemotional."
Well, it depends on what kinda love it is and to who. But yeah I'm somewhat unemotional to the point I seem cold and insensitive.

"A Gemini's biggest fear: fear of not experiencing enough."
Yep! That's my personal concern.

"A Gemini can't stand people with nothing interesting to say."
Wait! Who the hell can stand people with nothing interesting to say? Come on! Be honest! It's not just me or any other Gemini. Luckily, people have different interests.

"Gemini tend to take their feelings apart and figure them out, rather than feeling feelings on their own terms."
Exactly! I mean, I sure do have feelings. In fact, I'm pretty emotional about almost everything. But I just can't help but analyse whatever I feel and why I feel that way. It's so amazing how these chemical reactions in our brains can produce such emotions. We are indeed very complex.

"For the most part, Gemini don't care to get too deeply into anything."
Yeah, it sucks sometimes. If I didn't care to get too deeply about some ideas, fields, activities, or hobbies, it wouldn't be a problem. I could be very excited to learn something in a day, and for the next few days I got so drowned into it, but after a week, I got bored and just wanna skip to another exciting new things.
It always happens. That's why I'm jacks of all trades.
But when it comes to people and their feelings, it can be really, really bad. One day I could be so obsessed about someone, always pick up the phone and always text back. I could easily spoil the "I love you" words because that was what I really felt at the moment. But after a while, I just couldn't go any deeper. When things get more complicated, I just wanted to go to the next interesting things.
Damn! Now I feel so shallow!

"Gemini enjoy contrasts and contradictions in life that provide different ways of looking at things."
Yes, I do. I couldn't say it any better.

"Gemini has a dual nature: part brainy intellect, part scatterbrained chatterbox."
Guilty as charged! Trust me, I can be brainy intellect too sometimes. But this scatterbrained chatterbox is easier to be seen.

Seriously, I don't wanna believe about astrology or any other superstition, because I honestly think thet don't make sense at all, but I always feel as if those sources refer to me when they talk about a Gemini. Isn't it crazy?

I Miss Traveling

Tuesday, January 23, 2018

Day 16: Something that you miss

When I peeked on today's challenge yesterday, I thought I'm gonna have to write about how I miss the sun so badly. It has been raining or heavily cloudy for weeks here. The sky was almost always dark. It gave me such a gloomy mood and I think that might be why I have been so negative lately.

But guess what! Today, after a long period of gloomy days, finally it's sunny!

This morning the sun shined so brightly! It was so beautiful! You know, you can't appreciate sun shine unless you've seen rain for weeks. So, I feel like appreciating the sun before I start today's challenge.

Now, what I miss?

Well, that's pretty easy. I miss traveling abroad. I miss it sooooo much!

And by abroad I mean Europe. I miss roaming around the alleys of European cities, hearing the locals talk to each other in their beautiful languages, checking on the local cathedrals or museums, or just sitting anywhere and observing around.

The last time I went to Europe was... Omg 3 years ago! I went to Greece with my parents and sister. Really wished my brother was there the whole time.

I really need to go now. I really need to get outta here!

Just Ordinary Monday, What Can I Say

Monday, January 22, 2018

Day 15: Bullet point your whole day

This is kinda boring.

- Woke up at six
- Morning routine: take out the garbage, walk the dog, exercise, etc
- Learned and practiced languages
- Replied texts
- Made some proposals
- Went for family dinner
- Went for a meeting with an old friend
- Went home

My Favourite Movies are..

Sunday, January 21, 2018

Day 14: Favourite Movies That You Never Get Tired of Watching

Sunday! What a perfect time to talk about movies!

My ideal weekend would be me in a comfy sofa, enjoying a big box of pizza, a bottle of coke, or a glass of rootbeer float, and a bowl of pop corn with too much butter, while watching these movies.

Here are my list of favourite movies I never get tired of watching (not in order, there's no order):

'Jurassic Park' (1993)
It has been my favourite movie since I was little. Aren't we all, children of the 90's obsessed about dinosaurs? I used to have mini dinosaurs, books about dinosaurs, and puzzle, and all.
I can watch this movie over and over again and will never get bored. I remember every scene: when they were moving a raptor and one of the staffs fell and grabbed by the raptor, Dr. Grant and his raptor's claw, the fat guy with that white foam, the first time they saw Brontosaurus, the sick Triceratops, the famous T-Rex scene, and so on, oh yes I remember every scene of it! I also hum its original soundtracks everytime I go to the zoo and the car gets into the predators area.

'Forrest Gump' (1994)
I actually can watch anything with Tom Hanks in it over and over again. I love all of his movies: 'Catch Me If You Can', 'Green Mile', 'Bridge of Spies', 'Philadelphia', you name it. 'Sleepless in Seattle'? Hmm... Okay, actually, I won't watch his rom-coms twice.
Anyway, Forrest Gump is my favourite movie of all! Every scene in that movie is just so touching yet entertaining. That movie is great and really worth to watch every time.

'Lion King' (1994)
When I was little, I was so obsessed to be a king, thanks to this movie. Yes, a king, not a queen. I wanted to be Mufasa. Sometimes I just forgot that I wasn't Mufasa. I really loved it, and I can sing every single song in it. The songs are great, you know.
Now I still love to watch this movie, I won't get tired watching it. It's like the 'Game of Thrones' for children.

'La Vita è Bella' (1997)
So far, this is still my most favourite movie. The fact that it is an Italian movie has something to do with it. But it's definitely not the only factor. This is the most beautiful story about one of the worst era in the history. The story is actually tragic, but somehow can be very sweet. The characters are adorable. The message is strong. The critics of humanity issues are very smartly delivered. It's very well made.

'Coco' and 'The Greatest Showman' (2017)
These are the most recent great movies I've watched. Some posts earlier I just told you about how much I loved these movies. I love the stories, the characters, the graphics, and most of all, the songs of these movies are the songs I'm recently so in love with!

'Godfather: part I' (1972) and 'Godfather: part II' (1974)
No, I don't wanna watch the third, it's too painful for me. But the first and second movies are very enjoyable to watch. I especially love the famous horse head scene, the last scenes of those movies. Also all the Sicily scenes OMG! The story of Michael and Apollonia, the story of young Vito Andolini and his sweet revenge. BEST! Oh and that song little Vito sang is just so beautiful, 'Ninna Nanna Malandrineddu', it's a Sicilian lullaby. I like to listen to this song when I'm trying to sleep. It's beautiful, even though the message is actually pretty scary.

'La La Land' (2016)
The casting is perfect! Oh I love Emma Stone so much! Especially when she's with Gosling. It's also visually stunning! The colors, the design, the coreography. The story is simple but beautiful. And of course...... the music! Oh my... All the songs are amazing! They give me eargasm all the time. But my favourite song is the one Mia (Emma Stone) sang on the audition. I love that song, and her voice is just perfect! And also, my favourite scene! When they met at the party and Mia requested that song.. No, you have to watch it. It's hilarious.

'Amadeus' (1984)
I love the story of the life of the greatest genius people in history. And 'Amadeus' really tells the story in a very entertaining way. I love how they picture Mozart's character, his relationship with Constanze, his relationship with his father, and of course, his rivalry with Salieri. It's very ironic, and irony like that happens all the time in real life.

'Frozen' (2013)
Say whatever you want. This is one of my favourite animations. I really love the animation, the songs (each one of them), the characters, the dresses, the stories, everything about it. Most of all, I love Elsa and Anna so much because, as a woman with a sister, I can relate with anything about sister's love. My relationship with my sister is not like Elsa and Anna. I would never say no to building a snowman or any activity with my sister. And unlike Elsa, I don't have to. That's why I can feel the pain of not being able to play or spend time with your sister. I always skip the 'do you wanna build a snowman' scene to avoid breaking into tears. Yes trust me I'm serious.

There are still so many movies I never get tired of watching. Especially Disney movies. But my time is up. I gotta post this.

To Cheat or not to Cheat

Saturday, January 20, 2018

Are you a cheater?

You’re probably not, or just don’t realize that you are.

When someone is in an exclusive/monogamous relationship or a marriage, and he/she had sex, kissed, dated, or even just had a feeling for someone else, it is cheating. The person is called a cheater. Pretty simple. So, are you?

Look, I don’t hate cheaters. I don’t judge them. We can’t judge them.

We have to know the ‘why’. Why are they cheating? There would be so many reasons.

Maybe they’re bored with their partners, because their partners are boring, or because they just got bored easily.

Maybe, they love their partners, they’ve loved their partners, but they don’t think their partners appreciated them enough. Yeah, the word ‘love’ is very debatable here. But, you know what I mean.

Maybe they do love their partners, but they also love someone else. We can love, or be emotionally or sexually interested to multiple people. It’s possible, just not allowed. We are not naturally monogamous. Monogamous relationship is just a concept we created centuries ago, because we’re selfish, and, even tho we ourselves can’t be monogamous, our ego can’t stand sharing our loved ones with others. Very selfish? Yep, that’s who we are.

Maybe, they don’t even love their partners in the first place. Maybe it was an arranged marriage. Maybe they were young and impulsive, and they just got married, but it was a mistake. Maybe, for one or another reason, they must get married (in Indonesia, most people still think that if you knocked a woman up, you should marry her, for the sake of reputation thing). So, these two people don’t love each other, or don’t anymore, but they have to be together, because they’ve promised to.

So they cheat.

No reason makes cheating acceptable or unacceptable.

Here’s the thing. Are we a cheater?

Why do we stay doing the thing we don’t love? Our heart is loving something else. It wants something else so bad, yet we can’t just let the unloved one go.

Some people have to do what they don’t want to do, what they don’t love, just because they have to. They need the money, they need the financial stability, they need to survive, they’re afraid, if they leave this job they don’t love, and the other job they love don’t make money for them, they can’t get the old job back.

Are you a cheater?

The way I see it, it’s not wrong. It’s just unhealthy. Cheating is unhealthy.

We want more than one thing/person/job and we just can’t be honest about it. We have to lie. We have to hide something. Sometimes, we have to hide so many things. We have to fake it.

Or, you know, we can have it all, but it might as well to difficult to handle at the same time, and we might end up with nothing instead.

I can totally understand cheaters. I mean, come on! We don’t put our eggs in one basket. We need plan B, plan C, plan D.

I understand why we lie, because I’m lying too.

To cheat or not to cheat is not as easy as you think.

I am so Excited!

Saturday, January 20, 2018

Day 13: What are you excited about?

Conversations. Interesting ones at least.

Conversations about things I didn't know before. Conversations that give me information. The importance of the information is relative. What is important to me may not be important for others.

You know what I'm not excited about? Writing this. I'm getting bored with this challenge.

But wait, speaking of excitement, me and my sister went to our brother's house last night. My brother and his wife picked me up at home, then we went to pick my sister up at the station. She just got back from work. We ate at KFC, bought some snacks and milk at Total, spent time with our parents for a while, and then we went to brother's house.

What was so exciting?

Well, me, my siblings, and my brother's wife, were planning our trip to... I can't share the detail. But hint: it's the best place on earth for me.

So I was very excited. We were all very excited about the trip. I'm still very excited now.

And that's what I am soooo... excited about.

I just realized that I've been so blessed

Friday, January 19, 2018

Day 12: Five Blessings in My Life

1. My unconventional way of thinking
Or maybe, unconsciously, I'm basically just a pretentious hipster.
But I'm happy that I'm not like most people. I'm not better than most people. My way of thinking can limit me from  some certain things. And sometimes I just can't get most people's logic and it's kinda annoying. So, no, it's not about which one is better. But you have to feel blessed for the way you think. It affects the way you live your life, the choices you make, the people you're surrounding yourself with, and so on.
You should feel blessed for the way you think, or else, you'd change your way of think, right?

2. The chance to do what I've done and to visit the places I've visited
I don't travel as much as I really want to, and have been very complaining about that. I haven't done many things on my or anyone's things-to-do-before-die list. But I feel blessed and grateful to ever had the chance to be in some places and to do some things.
Italy, Greece, and Brazil are the three countries I've always wanted to visit, in that order. I've been to two of those three countries. Maybe it's nothing for most people. But I feel so grateful about that. I still want to visit them again and again, and sometimes I got sad because I miss them, but come on! I've been there!
I've always wanted to talk to a non-english-speaking foreigner in their language, and I've done it, multiple times!
I've always wanted to learn foreign languages. Now there are many free applications and programs that I can use to learn any language I want.
I've seen some cool animals, I've been bitten by a tegu. It was a pretty cool experience.
I've always wanted a football or futsal team, now I have one. I've always wanted to try wall climbing, because I've always loved to climb anything, and I've tried. I haven't published any books, but I've known how it feels to write something that people love, because I've written some, and people have read some.

3. My physical condition
I'm not the healthiest person, but hey, I still have two functional hands, two functional legs, two functional eyes, two functional ears. I can walk, I can breathe, I can see the beauties around me, I can hear the music, I still have my memory.

4. This country and neighborhood I live in
To be honest, I hate so many things about this country, especially most of its people and their hypocritical values. I also hate about the city where my office is. But overall, I still feel lucky that this country is not at war. We live in peace, even though we're at some kinda stupid war in the social media. And I love the neighborhood I live in. I have the most wonderful neighbors. They're really nice. They're the kindest people. Even the kids are very nice.

5. My family, friends, and social life
It might sound so cliche, but my family is the greatest blessing I've had in my life. They might not perfect, but they're the best for me!
My dad is a family man whose always choose his family over everything. He really enjoys hanging out with his children and siblings.
Honestly, my mom is a kind of person that I cannot stand, but as a mother, she's amazing! She'd do anything for her children. She's like Cersei. Maybe that's why I hate Cersei so much. I'm not always in a good relationship with my mother, but I don't hate my mother. We know we love each other. I think she's great. She can always support her children in any possible way. She'd do literally anything for us.
My sister and brother are the best siblings in the world. I don't know how they could love a sister like me, but they do love me. Spending time with them is the best feeling in the world, even better than being alone. I still need to be alone sometimes tho'.
My brother's wife and my sister's fiancé are the best people to add into our family. They're like my own brother and sister. My brother and sister are really smart when it comes to choosing a lifetime partner. So proud of them.
I have many cousins too, and aunts, uncles, nieces, and nephews, and when I'm around them I feel so blessed.
I have a lot of friends too. I've always been a loner. I didn't have any friends until I was 14. I'm still a loner until now. But somehow I still have good friends. I mean, they're very good too me even though I'm not really a good friend to them. I'm surrounded by love and trust. Some would say, you could only have a few best friends, but I have a lot of people that I would call best friends, because they're always there when I need them.
Trust me, I'm doing my best to do the same in return. One of the biggest reasons why I should have financial freedom is to have enough time, energy, and money to spend with them, to make them happy, and to help them when they're in need.

So, those are the five blessings in my life. I'm so blessed.

I really wonder, what have I done to deserve all of these blessings?

I've been complaining like a spoilt brat. Yes, I don't have everything I want. But I have almost everything I need. I just need to remind myself over and over again that, even though I'm still far from rich, my life is actually really good.

Thank God.

What If

Thursday, January 18, 2018

Day 11: Something I always think "what if..." about

This one is easy.

I always think what if I had a financial freedom? What if money was never a problem? What if I didn't have to work anymore?

Yeah that's the most beautiful 'what if' scenario.

I could visit any place I wanted, not just alone, but with my family and friends! I mean, I wouldn't make it like a tour. I could travel all the time. One month I traveled alone, the other month I traveled with my family, the next month I traveled with one group of friends, the next month I traveled with other group of friends, and so on.

I would be able to visit my relatives all around the world. The ones in Switzerland, the ones in The Netherlands, the ones in Belgium, the ones in Australia, and of course I could easily visit my family in Jogja, Semarang, and Bali anytime I wanted. Damn I miss them all.

I would be able to go to any school and learn anything I wanted. I would learn philosophy in a year, then learn astronomy the next year. I would learn about any kinda history I wanted. I might as well figure out the missing link!

I would definitely learn any language I wanted. I'd learn at least two languages a year, and not with aps, not with courses, but with the native speakers in their own countries. I'd learn languages while traveling.

I would be a linguist! I would learn about the history of languages. I would figure out historical facts from the evolution of languages!

I would make a forest! I would plant as many trees as the rest of the world cut every year. I would have the most unique, playful, eco-friendly house. I'd have my own recycling machine. I'd only use the most eco-friendly products, I'd even make ones if I had to. I'd use solar panel and any other eco-friendly technology for my house.

I would make the best animal shelter in the world. I would save any animals I found! Yeah there would be so much double standards there, because I would still hate some animals like cockroaches and cicak (Cosymbotus platyurus), the most disgusting creature in the world. I don't even hate reptile. I only hate cicak!

Anyway, yeah it sounds hypocritical that I wanted to only save selected animals. But I'd do whatever I wanted. That's the point.

I would write, I would paint, I would design, I would create things. I would learn to play any music instrument I wanted. Drum would definitely be the first. I would have a jam session with my brother, cousins, friends.

I would collect classic cars and motorcycles. I already have my list. I would collect bicycles and skateboards too.

I would play futsal, football (soccer), American football, basketball, hockey, ice hockey, baseball, maybe even cricket! I would play any game I wanted anytime I wanted!

I would have my own boxing ring, wall climbing tracks, and theme park.

I would learn any martial arts I wanted. I think, if I had financial freedom, I'd turn myself into Batman. Not like Batwoman or Batgirl. But female and cheerful version of Bruce Wayne, because he's rich, smart, multilingual, and master multiple martial arts. Yeah that's why he's my favourite superhero ever.

I might be a superhero, like Batman, but with values like Marvel's the Punisher. Rich version of the Punisher, but more brutal.

Oh seriously this article is not gonna end. But I have to end it because these are all just a 'what if'. Now I need to do some things to make them real. Adios amigos!

Something I Feel Strongly About

Wednesday, January 17, 2018

Day 10: Write about something for which you feel strongly

Okay, to be honest, I'm not really sure what this question means. English is not my first language.

I just googled it and found out that it means 'to have a strong or definite opinion about something.

So, I have too many strong opinions about everything. I'm not the most open-minded person even though I try so hard to.

It's so hard for me to even choose what to talk about. I have too many things in my head.

This one is kinda sensitive but... Okay, I really think religions (maybe not all) make people lose their common sense.

Don't kill people, don't hurt people, don't harm people, don't rape, don't steal, do help people, give what you can give, control your emotions, and so on. They should be a common sense.

You don't wanna harm people because it's not nice to be harmed. Don't do to others what you don't want others do to you. That's as simple as that.
When people are in need, and we're able to help, we help. Because why not?

But in some religions I know, with the concept of heaven and hell, punishment and rewards, people seem to lose their common sense and their humanity.

Oh in this very holy month, if we give charity, we will have more rewards in heaven. If we help this kinda people, we'll have bigger rewards. If we kill, rape, rob people, steal from people, lie to people, we'll be punished in hell. If we believe in certain religion, we're more likely to go to heaven. If we don't believe in certain religion, we won't be able to go to heaven, no matter how good we are. If we kill certain people, we'll be rewarded with virgins.

No, I'm not talking about your religion. Why so sensitive?

I mean, religious people can do or not do anything just because of the rewards and punishments.

You know, here in Indonesia, people are so concerned and judgemental about things like LGBT, adultery, and alcoholism. I'm not talking whether it is right or wrong. But, seriously? Do you wanna know why they are so concerned about those things? No, not because they're bad things, or because they're worried about those people. No! They're very concerned about those things, because they're so afraid of being punished by God, if they let those things happen.

So, instead of making people better, I think religions make people think much more about themselves than about anyone else. Well, I actually believe that technically, everyone is doing everything for themselves.

But here's the way I see it. Let's say, there were these three little children, and there's this box of chocolates.
Their mother told the older brothers to make sure that their little brother didn't eat too much chocolates, because it's not good for his teeth or health, or because it can make him hyperactive.

When the mother left, both the older brothers tried so hard to keep the chocolate away from their little brother. One of the older brothers did it because he didn't want his little brother to be sick, or to be hyperactive, because their mother would be worried or stressed. He really worried about his little brother and his mother, because he cares.

The other brother only did it because he didn't wanna get in trouble. He didn't want his little brother to eat the chocolates because he didn't want his mother to punish him.

Why did the mother put that box of chocolates there in the first place, right? Well, there's another controversial question. The Mom just knows better. We don't question him... I mean her.

Anyway, both older brothers did try to stop their little brother to eat the chocolates for themselves. The first brother didn't want to see his little brother sick, because he loves him, and he would be sad if his brother got sick, so basically he just didn't want himself to be sad. Yes, I'm aware of this.

But at least he really cares about his little brother, you know what I mean?

Here's the difference it can make:
If some bad guy came and said, "Hey, you know what, your mom just told me that your little brother can have all the chocolates he wants. He may get sick, but your mom wouldn't punish you for that."

Why would the mom let the bad guy in and talk on behalf of her in the first place? Another controversial question you shouldn't ask.

Anyway, the brother who really cares would still stop the little brother from eating all the chocolates. But the one who was just afraid of being punished would just let the little brother eat the chocolates, because who cares if the little brother got sick? He's not being punished. It's all that matters.

These people, these religious people, they don't even think about how what they do can affect others. The hell with others. The hell with common sense. I'm going to heaven. It's all that matters. So yes, they can judge people all they want, they can do whatever they want to people, because they really need to save themselves from the punishment!

That's why, here in Indonesia, people can drag a couple out of the hotel room and punish them all they want, but no one is dragging corruptors from their fancy houses, because when people steal, God wouldn't punish people around them, unlike adultery.

I'm not saying all the religious people are heartless morons and all the atheist are saints. There are also some religious people that still have common sense and not reward-oriented. But seriously, all these rewards and punishments things seem to weaken humanity.

I'm religious myself. I'm rewards and punishments oriented (or more just punishments oriented actually), even though I don't wanna be like that. I'm actually talking about myself too. So please, no offense. I'm also offended by my opinion, so we're on the same side here.

Anyway, I really admire people who don't really care about all those shits, and just do good in their lives, just because. I know plenty of people like that. Most of them are atheist. But some of them are religious too.

Now I'm gonna quote something I twitted years ago:

"I know some people who forgive themselves for bad things they've done or they're still doing, just because they believe that God will forgive them anyway. I also know some people who don't believe in God but they happen to be the nicest, purest people around me. I do believe in God. I just don't believe that believing in God has any correlations at all with being a good person. When you're good, you're good. When you're bad, you're bad."

Speaking Words of Wisdom, Let it Be

Tuesday, January 16, 2018

30 Days Writing Challenge Day 9:
Post Some Words of Wisdom that Speak to You

I have some. They're anonymous but really speak to me.

"Today is the beginning of everything you want."

"In a society that profits from your self doubt, liking yourself is a rebellious act."

"Money isn't everything, but everything needs money."

"Loneliness is dangerous. It's addicting. Once you see how peaceful it is, you don't want to deal with people."

Make money, self improvement, me time, loved ones

Monday, January 15, 2018

30 Days Writing Challenge, Day 8: Share something you struggle with

Whoa! That's heavy!

Okay, I'm struggling with a lot of things. We are all struggling with a lot of things.

I wanna share my daily struggle of managing my time to spend. I struggle to set my priorities.

Every single day I need to make money, I need to reach my own goals, I need me time, and I also really need to spend time with my family.

Of course making money should be the first priority, since I'm not Bill Gates or his family member. Then I wanna reach my other goals, such as learning languages, writing books, or practicing my drawing skills. But I also need me time, or I'll lose my mind. I need some relaxing time to play games, read books, or just exploring social media.

I also want to spend time with family. I want to have all the time to spend with my sister and her fiancé, my brother and his wife, my mom, and especially my dad. I want to listen carefully to whatever he's got to say, I want to talk about football, about his beautiful childhood, about my childhood, about his dreams, even about politics.

I want to spend time with my cousins, my aunts, my uncles, and especially my nieces and nephews. I want to see them grow. I want to play with them in the theme parks or football fields. I want to talk with my cousins, uncles, and aunts about everything happens in our lives.

So the struggle is real.

If I don't make money, I'll have no money. If I had no money, I wouldn't be able to buy food, clothes, new books, birthday presents for my loved ones, I wouldn't be able to pay for the transportation I need to go anywhere.

If I didn't reach my personal goals, I wouldn't be happy, even if I was surrounded by the loved ones, something would be missing. I can't really explain my urge to reach all those goals, but they are very, very important to me.

I want to write books, because I have so many ideas in my head, and I really need to share them. I need to learn as many languages as possible, because everytime I met a non-english-speaking foreigner, or travel to non-english-speaking countries, I really have to speak their languages. When we were in Greece, my dad left his hat in the bus station, and the taxi driver who took us from the station to our hotel didn't speak English. I just needed to deliver a simple message: "My dad left his hat in the bus. Can we go back to the bus station?" But back then I didn't speak Greek!

And me time, if I don't have any time to myself, I'll go crazy! I need a break. Everyone needs a break.

And I'm a very introverted person. I'm so happy to be surrounded with my family, but I got tired too. At some point, I just wanna be quiet and let them all do the talk. People make me tired, even the loved ones.

And people! People are so hard to maintain.

I love too many people in my life. I love my family, I love my best friends, and I have plenty of them! I don't wanna lose my moment with any of them. I don't wanna miss any important moment in their life. But I have very limited time, money, and energy!

But you know what? I know some people out there who can juggle all of those needs pretty well. They even have wife, husband, and even children!

I really think the key is to eliminate the 'making money' part. Of all those things, making money is the only thing I don't enjoy at all, but at the same time the one I really have to do.

So, what I really need to do is building passive income as soon and as much as possible. I really need to find the fastest and most effective way to make money without having to work ever again.

When I have unlimited money, I'll have unlimited time and energy. So I'd have everything. I'd be able to learn any language I want, travel wherever I want, do whatever I want, spend all the time with my dad, my brother and sister and their wife and fiancé, and even my mom, and my aunts, uncles, cousins, nephews and nieces, friends, and I'd still have a lot of me time!

10 Songs I'm Loving Most Recently

Sunday, January 14, 2018

30 Days Challenge: Day 7

So, for today's challenge, I gotta list 10 songs that I'm loving right now.

This is not my all time top 10 favourite, but here are the songs I really, really, really love to listen and sing recently:

10 'Never Enough' - Loren Allred, from the motion picture 'The Greatest Showman'
Yep! It's not a big surprise that this list will be full of the original scores from the movie 'The Greatest Showman', because I just watched it two weeks ago, and I am still madly, deeply in love with that movie! I love everything about it, but especially the songs! I just can't stop listening to those beautiful songs! Once I stopped, I'd start singing them out loud.
And this song, 'Never Enough' by Loren Allred, is just so beautiful! I love the feel it gave me the first time I heard it, it really touched me! And I personally love Loren's voice. It is soft and feminine, but very strong at the same time. She's such an amazing talent! And her voice really matched Rebecca Ferguson's look and Jenny Lind's character.

9 'The Greatest Show' - Hugh Jackman, from the motion picture 'The Greatest Showman'
Another great song from this great movie! I always love to see Hugh Jackman sing, like in the musical movie 'Les Miserables'. I'm not a big fan of Wolverine. He's kinda cool and badass, but big, strong, badass guy is kinda boring for me. I love to see him sing and dance, and perform something theatrical, exactly like in this song, in this movie. He looked so charming, so adorable, and of course very entertaining! Love Hugh Jackman so much!

8 'This is Me' - Keala Settle, from the motion picture 'The Greatest Showman'
Right now, I am so obsessed with Keala Settle! Like.... I stalk her Instagram almost every day! So in love with her voice! She's so talented! And I love this song, I love the scene when this song came out, and until now I keep listening and singing this song.

7 'Un Poco Loco' - Anthony Gonzalez and Gael Garcia Bernal, from the animated movie 'Coco'
Okay, finally a song that is not from 'The Greatest Showman'. It's from another movie I'm also obsessed about. 'Coco' is the best animation movie I've ever seen. I love the story, I love the visual, I love the imagination, I love the characters, I love the jokes, the drama, the plot twist, and of course... the songs! So many beautiful songs from that movie! If I haven't watched 'The Greatest Showman', this list would've probably been full of original soundtracks from 'Coco'. And this song, 'Un Poco Loco', is one of my favourite songs from that movie. I love the funny lyrics and the fun music, I love Anthony Gonzalez and Gael Garcia Bernal's voice, I love the musical instruments, I love how entertaining Miguel and Hector were, I just love everything about this song!

6 'Tightrope' - Michelle Williams, from the motion picture 'The Greatest Showman'
Yep! Another TGS songs! I put it a little higher on the list because I'm so in love with Michelle Williams voice! Her voice is so dreamy and fits her character, Charity very well. Listening to this song, I always think of how beautiful Michelle Williams was in that movie. The character, the hairdo, the make up, the outfit are perfectly beautiful and suit her very well. Michelle Williams has never been more beautiful! Oh I love this song! I always shiver listening to this song, to its feels, to its contents, to Michelle's voice... How can a voice be that beautiful??

5 'Misty Mountain Hop' - Led Zeppelin, that untitled 4th album
My list of top 10 favourite songs always contains at least 3 LZ song. But actually, this song never made it to top 10. But lately I'm really into this song because it's actually very good, but I hardly listen to this. Each LZ song is very special for me. They really made various kinda songs, and everything is so beautiful. This untitled 4th album is very special, not just because it is untitled, but because I can say it's LZ most popular album. There are 'Stairway to Heaven', 'Rock and Roll', 'Black Dog', and my favourite LZ song ever, 'The Battle of Evermore'! And now, 'Misty Mountain Hop' is my new favourite. I mean one of my favourite songs. It is still not in my top 10 LZ songs. But I really love the mood, the feels, the music, that electric piano played by the most underrated multi-instrumentalist genius John Paul Jones! This song is so fun to listen, hum, and dance to. Oh they are really the gods of music!

4 'Remember Me' - Gael Garcia Bernal, from the animated movie 'Coco'
Another song from 'Coco'. I love this version, the one sung by Hector (Gael Garcia Bernal). The scene when he sang this song to Coco, his gentle voice, the acoustic guitar, Coco sings at the end of this song... Who doesn't cry watching this movie? Seriously! Oh I love this song so much! I can sing it a hundred times in a day.

3 'Barcelona' - Freddie Mercury and Montserrat Caballé, the audio version
This song. Oh my... Still the best song a human being could ever create! I personally think that Freddie Mercury is the best musician ever! He's such a legend! Of course Mike Moran also deserves the credit.
This song is a perfection! The very dramatic orchestral opening, Freddie Mercury's strong voice, Caballé's beautiful voice, the mixture of all the beauties! It's classic, but it's also rock, or pop. I don't know. Aarrhh I wish I had a word to describe how beautiful this song is! I really need to explore a lot of music vocabulary! Just google this song, watch it on YouTube, and you'll see... This is the greatest song! Even tho', on this list I gotta put it on number 3, but in my list of best songs, it will always be on top!

2 'Come Alive' - Hugh Jackman, from the motion picture 'The Greatest Showman'
Okay now we're back to another song from TGS. Why is it on number 2? Because I really love to see the dance! Especially Hugh Jackman's part. Omg he's so damn sexy! When he played with the hat, when he clapped his hands and then opened them wide. When listening to this song, I can always imagine Hugh Jackman dancing. Also, this song is damn entertaining!

1 'A Million Dreams' - Ziv Zaifman, Hugh Jackman, Michelle Williams, from the motion picture 'The Greatest Showman'
And finally, the song I'm recently loving the most. The sixth TGS song in this list!
I love all the singers voices, I love the music, I especially love the refrain, but most of all, I love the lyrics so much! It's about a young boy with big dreams, despite the poor condition he was in. P. T. Barnum was a man of vision. I don't personally like him. I actually hate circus with animals. But in general, I adore people with visions. I'm a big dreamer myself. This song really shows how, even in the lowest condition, young Barnum still believed in his big dreams, he was still optimistic, ambitious, and full of confidence! I can relate somehow. I might be delusional, but up until now, I still believe that I'll reach my dreams one day. And listening to this song, it seems impossible to be realistic.

Okay those are the 10 songs I'm really loving recently. If you happen to be around me lately, you must have heard these songs, either played or sung by me, to the point you don't wanna hear these songs ever again in your life, yet you're humming them unconsciously in your spare time.

Five Ways to Win My Heart

Saturday, January 13, 2018

30 Days Writing Challenge: Day 6

Five Ways to Win My Heart!

Oh gosh... I feel like exposing my self!
Why should I write about this?

Actually, my heart is wide open. It's just hard to get deeper, but easy to win.

Anyway, here's five ways I think people can win my heart..

5 Praise me, appreciate me
I'm lack of appreciation and recognition, mostly because I've done nothing to deserve it anyway. Lol!
But seriously, I love to be appreciated and praised. My moon is in Leo, which means I am actually a Leo. My pride is higher than the tax in developed countries.
It's nice when guys tell me that I'm pretty, but I really love it when people tell me that I'm smart, or funny, or unique, or talented. It's nice when people appreciate my artworks or saying they're amused by my articles, they love my articles, something like that.
Have you watched 'Mother'? Well, I'm kinda like Javier Bardem's character.

4 Puppy
What kinda woman wouldn't melt if someone bring her a puppy, or even just show a puppy picture? Oh! Puppies are the best!
But actually, it's not just puppy. Even though I am not an animal lover myself (not hate, just you know...), animal lovers always win my heart. I have things for the ones who really take a good care of animals, especially dogs. I mean... it needs a huuuge patience and a lot of love. And animals are honest. You can pretend to love kids or elderly, but you can't pretend to love animals because animals can tell if you're pretending.

3 Food
Bring me my favourite food, cook for me, buy me some snacks and junk food... Yep, if you win my mouth and stomach, you win my heart. That's the easiest way I guess.

2 Get closed and connected with my family
My sister, brother, dad, and mom mean everything to me. They're the four people I really care about. So if they like you and enjoy your companion, I instantly like you. You win my heart. That's why I love my brother's wife and my sister's fiancé. They make my siblings happy, they become my own siblings.

1 Intellectual conversation
Not that I'm intelligent myself. You do realize that you don't have to be extremely smart to be a sapiosexual, right? I'm not a smart or knowledgeable person, so people who are smart and full of knowledge always win my heart. I love talking to such people because I can always learn a lot of new, interesting things! They also inspire me, give me beautiful ideas, and trigger my intelligence and creativity. I love talking about many things, especially life and human nature. And I feel so lucky that I've met some highly intelligent people that have amused me with all our interesting conversations. Talking to them is never boring and the conversations are usually endless. Well, I just hope that they enjoy the conversations as well.


So, there, five ways to win my heart.

Five Places I Want to Visit

Friday, January 12, 2018

Day 5:

The challenge of the day is... List five places I wanna visit!

How specific should I be about the places? Because if I had to be very specific, all the top 5 would all be in Italy, and if I had to be even more specific, 3 of 5 would be in Toscana.

Anyway, here's the list (will edit later because it's late):

5 South America

4 Mongolia

3 France

2 Greece: Meteora, Crete

1 Italy: Each province of it

The One Inspired Me Most Recently

Thursday, January 11, 2018

30 Days Writing Challenge: Day 4

Okay, for the challenge today, I'm gonna have to write about someone who inspires me.

There are so many people who have inspired me. Some of them are the people around me, some are inspiring people I met by chance, and some are famous people and celebrities.

But today, I'll write about J. D. Salinger. He just became my inspiration lately. I mean, J. D. Salinger is a legend. Everyone knows him. I've known his name. I've known the famous 'Catcher in the Rye'. But I've never read the book and never read about him before.

Then I watched that movie, 'Rebel in the Rye', and I got so inspired. His struggle to be a professional writer really touched me.

More than that, I can totally relate with him. He was a lousy student, mostly because his lack of focus. He got bored so easily, he was also a rebel, he dropped out from some majors. He was anti-social, that anti-social he couldn't even maintain a relationship. And he was so passionate about writing.

I mean, yeah I'm sure he's not the only writer, or genius creator that was a rebel, eccentric, and anti-social. But because I just watched that movie recently, Salinger inspired me most recently.

So, if not J. D. Salinger himself, maybe the movie 'Rebel in the Rye' that has inspired me, or Whit Burnett, as the most influential person in Salinger's path to be a legendary writer.

I got so many important lessons in writing. And now I'm looking for the book 'Catcher in the Rye'. I really need to read that book.

In Order to Put Everything in Order

Thursday, January 11, 2018

My Real Top 3 Pet Peeves

Okay, yesterday I was writing in panic mode. I was so emotional and I was in my worst mood. Everytime I got really sick I turned into the meanest person on earth. Is that the real me? Is that my true color? I don't know. Maybe.

But now that I feel so much better, I feel so much better too about my life and people around me. I don't really hate people as I did yesterday.

So, my top 3 Pet Peeves are...

1. Dumb religious beliefs

No offense, but seriously? Some people really think that showing some stupid, non sense stories can make others want to convert to their religion?
For example, my mom really believes that, if people stopped walking around the Kabah, the world would stop rotating. I don't care what she believes, but sharing it to others in order to 'proof' that her religion is the true religion? That's just plain dumb. I don't think it was wrong, I just find it highly irritating.

2. Double Standard
Ugh! And there are too many kind of double standards everywhere! Where should I start?
For starter, I really hate home-wrecker haters, mostly women. So many dumb women hate home-wrecker, but don't hate the cheater. That's just plain dumb and irrational. So many women forgive their husband/boyfriend/partner/whatsoever for cheating on them, but will never stop hating the other women.

What else? Sexual harassment. People are already extremely aware of sexual harassment towards women, even to the tiniest, slightiest forms of harassment they can be extremely sensitive. But men are also being harassed all the time and nobody cares. Do we all really believe that all men are always happy and open to any sexual thing from women? Do you really think that men can't be raped? Oh yeah, we make fun of male rape victim.

Values in society. Some women hate men for being all about physical appearance, while they're trying so hard to fulfill that stupid physical appearance standard anyway. Yet, they want rich man with steady job and financial security.
So do men hate materialistic women, but they think that if they're rich, they can get any woman. And they also want pretty women. Ugh! Women, if you want a man for his money, don't complain about men wanting you for your beauty. And men, if you want a woman for her beauty, don't complain about them being materialistic. Deal with it.
Yeah there are too many double standards. I'll just stop now.

3. Broken Pattern
Or maybe the OCD I have is the pet peeve itself.

I always want to put everything in order. In fact, I've done a lot more thing than I should, in order to put everything in order.

Top Three Pet Peeves

Day 3:

I should have written this yesterday, but I got sick! I'm sick, and when I'm sick, I become a patientzila. I always have a very bad mood, and I show my true color. So, get ready to hate me in 3..., 2..., 1!

Day 3: What are your top 3 pet peeves?

Death. Diseases. Some people.

Death. I fucking hate death!
Diseases! I hate diseases!
And there are so many of them. Too many of them!

Fuck people who create diseases!

Fuck all the animals who bring diseases!

Fuck all the people who gave me diseases!

Right now I realize, all I ever wanted in life is being healthy and live forever. I want eternity. If I die, I'm gonna be so pissed! I've done nothing in my life! I've been no where! I've been trying so hard pleasing people because I thought I care about them. But you know what? It turned out that I don't. I just realized it now that I'm fucking ill.

I don't care about anyone but me! I know it sounds so selfish and mean, but trust me, the only reason you care about anyone in your life, is because you care so much about yourself in the first place. You don't wanna lose them, you don't wanna see them in pain, you wanna think that, when they die, they go to a better place. It's all about you! You need them to keep you alive!
I don't wanna die.

No, it's not cancer btw. I just caught a cold actually. But there's this fucking diphtheria epidemic surrounding my hometown. And I became very paranoid about it. I become paranoid about a simple cold!

I mean.... People are fucking dying! And I am freaking out. If I die, I wouldn't be happy. I wouldn't be in the better place. I'd be crying over living in this shit hole instead of the paradise on earth I've always wanted to live in.

I'm so scared!

Three days ago my mom kinda left me in a house with someone who probably had diphtheria. I just got the vaccine. But I just found out that vaccine needs days to start working. Wtf!?

And now I'm sick. How am I not worried?

Please don't kill me God! I hate my life! But let me just live a different life! Give me another chance to do everything differently!

Okay now chill. I'm not gonna die.
I'll heal. I'll live. I'll write another story.

Some Unforgettable Words

Monday, January 8, 2018

Day 2 of the 30 Days Writing Challenge.

And... the challenge of the day is....

"Write something that someone told you about yourself that you never forget!"

Should it be positive or negative? Okay, I'll just go with the positive one.

But on the second thought, it would sound like I was showing off. So, maybe I'll find something negative that turned out to have a positive effect on me.

(After hours of other activities)

Okay, today's challenge is more difficult than I thought. But I decided to write this one:

I really like this old friend of mine, and now I miss her terribly. I used to write articles that make people text me and compliment me for my thoughts or the way I write. I used to. Now I don't do it anymore and it makes me sad sometimes, including now that I have to think about it.

Anyway, this friend is one of those people who like to read my blog and compliment me all the time. She told me that my articles are smart and very amusing, and other beautiful compliments. I don't know how to say this without sounding like a snob, but, she's (or was) not the only one.

But what makes it unforgettable is, she herself is one of the smartest people I know in person. We went to the same university and were in the same class before I changed my major. She was the smartest student in our class. I really like her.

So, you probably get curious and check my older posts right away, or probably not. If you do, you probably think, "Which articles are so great, again?"

Yeah, they're not that great actually. If it was, I wouldn't be here. I would've been so rich and famous and I'd probably control the world.

But, whether it was really great or not, I'm not the kinda person who forgets easily such appreciations. I love being appreciated. Apparently, it doesn't automatically makes me more productive, but I still love the feeling.

10 Things That Make Me Really Happy

Sunday, January 7, 2018

So my sister gave me this ’30 Day Writing Challenge’, and the first day challenge is….

“LIST 10 THINGS THAT MAKE YOU REALLY HAPPY”

Okay, so… My wise friend told me once; there are only two things in the world that give a human true happiness: to give and to be trusted.

But I’m not there yet. For now, here are the 10 things that make me happy:

10 Dogs

I can’t say I’m an animal lover—or even dog lover if it means I have to take care of it—but dogs make me happy. They are the best creature I’ve ever seen! All dogs are incredibly cute, beautiful, and adorable! They are angels, really.

9 Sports game

Especially football (soccer, but I’d love to play American football too), but any other sports game would do. I love to play, not to watch, because I don’t like to watch. I love to be watched instead, even if I suck, playing is still better than watching. Especially when I watch my favorite football team, I usually get too attached emotionally and it ruins my mood for no reason. I hate it.

8 Books

I don’t read many books. I don’t read often, because I don’t have enough time. But I love books. Just being in a library or a bookstore makes me so happy. I’m surrounded by so many interesting books that I’d definitely read if I had the time.

7 Traveling

I prefer to do it alone, but to travel with my family is awesome too. I love to travel to other countries with completely different culture with mine. I love to travel to countries with languages I’ve learned, interact with the locals, and get them awed with my ability to speak in their tongue, even though I actually suck at it. That’s one of the best feelings. Especially the Europeans, they are mostly very appreciative.

6 Food

Pizza, olive, assorted cheese, fresh salmon, fresh oyster, creamy desserts…

I know some people would say, “It’s just food, it’s not love,” but for me, “It’s just love, not food,” makes more sense. I mean, love is beautiful. I love love. But honestly, who can live without food? Come on!

5 Learning

I love to learn about a lot of new things. Mind the ‘new’. It means I love it when it’s new for me. When I’ve learned it for a while, I got bored and move to the other things to learn. What have I learned by the way? Well, I’ve learned eight foreign languages, and speak none of them properly. Lol! I learned about philosophy, astronomy, psychology, sociology, the history of human, of language, of arts, of football, of fashion, of… yeah you name it, and now have forgotten most of them. Who cares? It makes me happy.

4 Writing

I’ve always loved to write. It’s the best thing to do in the world. It makes me happy to share whatever I thought, even if it would sound so dumb and ridiculous the very next day. I’m pretty expressive. I love to express whatever I feel, think, or dream about. I love to write stories and ideas. I used to write teen-series that were popular among my junior high and high school friends. And if I wanna be really honest, if I don’t have to think about making money, I’d love to be a writer. I mean, yeah some famous writers are extremely rich. But I don’t wanna write, being worried about whether my books would make money or not. I wanna just write because it makes me really happy.

3 The internet

Well, I don’t even have to explain, do I?

2 My inner circle

I love spending time with my sister and brother and their partners, my dad and mom, my cousins, some of my aunts and uncles, and my close friends (I have plenty). They’re so fun, awesome, and some of them are actually wise and inspiring. I won’t say I’d take a bullet for them, but trust me, they’re important enough to be put in number 2 in my sources of happiness list.

PS. No, romantic partner is not one of them. They’re like kids or animals: it’s fun to play with others’, but not so fun to have your own because you need to take care of it.

Because…

1 Me time

As much as I love the people I mentioned in number 2, I mostly love to be alone: watching movies or TV series, eat junk food, reading, making artworks, writing, listening to my music, singing it out loud, contemplating about life, taking a nice, warm, bubble bath, or even just doing useless thing like checking on social media. I still need people. As most people, I can’t live alone. But, me time is the best thing in the world, don’t you agree?

Okay, those are the 10 things that make me happy. There are a lot of things actually, but either they didn’t make it to the top 10, or I just forgot them. Anyway, see you in the next post.