Crazy Thought

"I feel like everything's gonna blow."

That was the first thing crossed in my mind when I started this post.

I don't know why, but I feel so gloomy today.


It might be the rain that keeps falling.

It might be those things I've gotta deal with, while I've got no time to.

It might be the fact that my baby hasn't been eating all day.

It might be the fact that I didn't play futsal last Thursday.

For the one I met on Thursday, please understand how big the sacrifice I've made, just to meet you.

Maybe it's this and that.

But once again, what if it was just me?

What if the only thing goin on here is that I'm just incapable of being happy.

Well, actually I can be happy for some moments. But my mood is just like roller coaster.

I'm so bipolar. I don't understand my self.

Maybe I'm too sensitive.

Today I just heard that one of my seniors in junior high just passed away.

She was hit by a motorcycle some couple of days ago. She's been in a coma for days, then today she finally gone.

It's sad. And also surprising. Shocking!

It made me thinking how short life is. How unexpected life is.

I always pray to God to give me long life. I pray that God would never take me. That God would let me enjoy this life more than anybody else.

Death sucks.

It made me gloomy. I hate it.

I hate so many things.

Maybe that's why it's kinda hard for me to be happy.

I feel this uneasy feeling 

Ok. Bye!