31 at Last

Sunday, June 11, 2017

Happy birthday to me!

Thirty something at last…

I’ve been very blessed.

I feel that I’m really blessed in every aspect of my life.

In the last month of my 30, I’ve done some things with great impact on my life.

Before I reached 31, I’ve spoken 3 languages and learned 6 more languages. The last was Greek. I finished learning the lesson a day before my birthday. I still need to practice a lot. Now at least I can write in 9 languages.

I’ve finally found another futsal team. Women team that plays weekly and full of futsal stars with great talent. I’ve left this sport for years because lack of team. But now I’ve found the perfect futsal team. Thank God. It’s been a very long time since the last time I played, but I believe, if I kept practicing, I’d be better and better every day. But the point is, in the beginning of my 31, I’ve finally joined a team again!

I’ve met some new friends, new communities, and I really love them, my friends and communities. To the people I just met, yes, every single one of you, I just wanna say, it’s truly nice to know all of you!

What else?

Okay. I’ve done something that… well, this one, I’m not sure if it was good or bad for our life, was it the right thing to do, or would make things even more complicated, but, I tried to clear things with the one. I’ve done some big mistake in the past, but now we both seem to be happy and in perfect condition, so I think it’s time to forgive myself. Dear my Ftkqp Dekbvknw, my owl, my hypothetically twin flame, if you happened to read this, well, you know, you’re still and always will be my one and only. I’ve closed my heart for anyone else. This heart is already yours.

Sorry if it sounds tacky and, I know, what the hell am I doing? Right? Writing about such personal thing on my blog?

But first, I just wanna tell the one about my feelings, but not telling it directly like with private message or something, because… you know, you can’t just tell people about your feeling about them directly to them, I don’t know why. And when I said directly that I loved someone, but I didn’t wanna be together, what would that make me? An asshole? A jerk? Right? I don’t care. Asshole and proud!

And second, I just need to make some kinda announcement, so I wouldn’t have to argue with people who kept telling me I needed to get married or I haven’t found the love of my life. I have. And I still don’t wanna get married because I know for sure what I really want in life. Nobody can have me. And by the way… it’s none of your frickin business! Get a life, people!

And, last but the most important thing is, I’m so blessed with the most beautiful family. My dad, my mom, my sister, my brother, my brother’s wife, and my sister’s fiancé are very close and love each other. We’ve been spending plenty of beautiful times together, but also supporting each other in the worst time, like when our dog died two months ago. I feel so blessed to have all of them in my life. I feel so blessed that I could celebrate my birthday with them. My brother and his wife weren’t here and aren’t here yet. But we will celebrate together soon.

This year, for the first time after 11 years, I got to celebrate my birthday without my very bestfriend, Bulbul. I wish heaven was real and he was in heaven now, looking at me—or not, as long as he is happy. And, before he passed away, he had found me another beautiful dog, Joey. Now Joey fills our house with love.

I also thank all of my new friends and old friends for their birthday wishes. It means a lot to me. I know I’m not good at maintaining relationship. I wish I would be able to fix that sooner or later.

Okay, that’s it for my birthday.

Oh, and don’t forget to check on my latest blog: www.mylittlelanguagecorner.blogspot.com

That’s the other thing I’ve made before 31.

Ciao!